Nightmares of the bottom
One month later
I lay on the ground, it's chilly outside and all I got on is a short mini black dress, similar to the dress I got for Jaden when he first beat me.
A tall black figure appear and walk closer to me, I start to move backwards as the figure come closer. The light from the street light reveal a very angry looking Jaden.
"I told you if I can't have you no one can" he say before pulling out a gun and pointing it to me.
"Don't do this Jaden" I yell just before he pull the trigger.
I wake up screaming and full of sweat, Killa come running in from the bathroom "What's wrong" he come to my aid with a worried face.
"I died, he shot me" I cry into his chest as he embrace me "it felt so real"
"This needs to stop" he say into my hair. He pull me closer to him and we lay back on the bed "you barely sleep, and when you do, you wake up screaming scared half to death. Let me handle this" he asks.
Killa want me to tell him what happened and who did it, but I refuse to tell him not to protect Jaden but to protect Killa. If something was to happen to him I couldn't bare it, I need him here with me and nowhere else.
"Let it go please for me" I beg as I continue to cry.
"It's because of you I can't, I'm find out"
I sigh deciding not to argue with him there is no point. Plus I'm tired as hell, I haven't had a good night sleep in a whole month and some change.
I lay on top of Killa as he hold me close and rub up and down my back softly and I slowly softly off to sleep in his arms.
The next morning I woke up in an empty bed, getting up and after washing my face and brushing me teeth. I walk out the room and look around the house till I find Killa in his office area.
I walk up behind him and place a kiss on his neck "good morning" he says as he pull me onto his lap.
"Good morning, I actually slept good last night" I say smiling, I feel more rest than I ever been. Killa holding me really helped.
"I'm happy for that... Tell me what happened" he demand "I don't wanna hear that bullshit you feeding your mama or your home girls I want the fucking truth and I want it now"
I get up and walk over to his bookcase sighing I look over to him with tears in my eyes and then turn back around.
"He gave me what I wanted most from you, attention. I meet him before he was flirting with me but I paid no attention, that day I found you in bed with another girl I somehow found my way to a bar... it's been many nights that I wished I didn't go to that bar or that I didn't allow him to kiss me or move me away but I allowed all of that to happen. It's my fault this happened" I cry "the first time he beat me I was just showing off a new dress I brought, he thought I was disrespecting him by showing to much skin. He would beat me than-than he would..." I cry harder and Killa come and hold me in my arms.
"What, what did he do" he asks through clenched teeth.
"He raped me Damien, he raped me than he would pull out and come on my face. One time he told I wasn't worth having his kids, than beat me some more. Maybe he was right, because I couldn't even protect the baby I was carrying" I cry as I fall to the ground with Killa still holding me.
"What baby?" he asks, when I don't answer he grab my chin and force me to look into his eyes. "Who baby?" he asks calmly.
"Your baby, our baby. He killed it he kicked me in the stomach, I miscarriage. I didn't know I was pregnant if I knew... would have been left but I didn't know" I cry.
