Cupid's smile
One Month later
Jennifer is still in a coma and is unresponsive, she been having muscle spasms like crazy lately I have yet to go up and see her.
I just can't ion want to see her like that, and I wouldn't want her to see me like that. She still have the mechine helping here breath, but her mother can't afford to keep it running for to long. She wants to pull through plug instead of her suffering.
"Killa we need to let her go" she explain.
King, Mama J, Lula, Kailey and I are all in the conference room at the hospital discussing whether to continue paying for the mechine.
"No, you wouldn't want her to give up on you why you giving up on your on dam flesh and blood." I snap, I can't believe this is even up for discussion.
"Killa you haven't seen her once, we seat up there and watch her slowly die every single day" Kailey cry.
"Killa sometimes it's best to let go" Lula say trying to hug me but I move out her way.
"Let go. You want me to let go. It's been how long and you still ain't let go of loose, so why should I let go fuck all y'all. Y'all not pulling the plug on her" I snap punching the wall.
"That's not up to you" mama J say.
"What you mean" I asks still full of rage.
"Mama J is Jenn Caretaker, so by law she decides whether it's time to pull the plug or not" King explain.
"That's bullshit, I'll pay to keep the mechine running." I state.
"I made up my mind already, I'm done watching her suffer" she state.
"The is bullshit" I snap than walk out.
Without knowing I made my way in front of Jennifer's room door, I just stand there looking at the knob. I want to go in but I don't
"Go see her man" King say, he grab by shoulder before walking away.
Taking a deep breath I walk in. I look at Jennifer, laying lifeless on through bed.
She look so weak and dull. Her hair has grown out so her roots are back black, and she got thinner.
I come to her side and seat in the chair, I grab her hand and kiss her knuckle softly.
I begin to do something I haven't done in years. Pray.
"Lord I come to you humbled, I asks that you give her back to me. I'll do right I swear. I love this girl with all by heart, she makes me better. I can't live without her, I already lost my seed and myself to this world. Don't let me lose the one person that keeps me grounded. In Jesus name Amen" I cry. Tears fall freely from my eyes. I haven't cried since I was 10 years old when my pops killed my mama than took his own life.
I hate being weak, I hate showing weakness, but I'll be weak for Jenn any day. Being weak with her makes me strong, make me feel as though somethings are worth dying for.
The soft squeeze of Jenn's hand pull me out of my thoughts. "Jenn can you hear me, squeeze my hand again" I instruct her calmly and on cue she squeezed my hand again.
Than she begin to spasm, I press the red button than run into the hallway "Help something happening" I yell.
Two nurses run my way with a doctor following behind, "Cold red, Cold red" the intercom yell.
I go back into the room and watch as they try to bring her back. Mama J and the rest of the crew come in and break down in tears.
When the line goes blank, I fall to the ground in tears.
