Deal wit it
Killa and I are laying low for a while until he figures out his next move on Jaden. I told him everything I knew which was close to nothing because Jaden was so secretive. He have his boys digging up as much dirty as he can, also some dudes at the DA office.
We also went to see the counselor, she asked a lot of personal questions. We did get somewhere through especially with Killa and I relationship and me dealing with the lose of the baby.
"It's boring" I whine. As Killa comes out the bathroom with nothing but a towel around his waist. We have yet to have sex, I haven't even thought about it with all that's been going on, but with Killa looking this dam sexy it got me hot all over.
I admire his body, Oh I wish I was one of those water drops just sliding it's way down his perfectly chiseled chest down to his…
"Jenn" Killa yell my name causing me to jump while pulling me out of my thoughts. I look up at his worried face, and with one quick movement I'm all over him.
I pull him into a deep kiss, he picks me up by my ass and slam me against the wall. He break the kiss and starts to suck on my neck, with his one free hand he rips my silk night grown revealing my naked body underneath I giggle as it fall time the ground while yanking his towel off.
"Wait" he say catching his breathe while holding my hand still.
"Why?" I whine as I continue to kiss on his neck, leaving passion marks.
"Stop dam listen to me" he snap moving away from me.
"What Killa" I asks confused and aggregated.
"We not ready for this, your not" he say picking up his towel and wrapping it around him before sitting on the bed sighing.
"I am… I love you Killa" I shout.
"I can't do this" he say shaking his head.
"Why, why can't you make love to me like before?" I snap "I just want some part of my old life back and I want you, so please do this for me. I love you and I want to make love to you, with you" I say. I walk over to him and straddle his lap pushing him back, than place soft kisses on his chest while pulling away at his towel.
"No" he state firmly, before pushing to the side off of him.
I burst out in tears how could he not want me, did I get that ugly and to skinny. That must be it. No matter that killa never turned me down, whether he was super mad at me or not. He always wanted me, so why not now?
"Stop crying" he say as he try to hold me but I quickly move away.
"Just don't" I cry, getting up I run into the bathroom closing and locking the bathroom door. I grab my robe and put it on, before closing it I look at myself in the mirror.
All the bruises are healed, only a couple permanent scars remain. Like the one just above my breast that kinda looked like a K. It must have happened while Jaden dragged me through the broken glass. My body is no longer as curvy as it was, but in slowly getting my shape back. I wish it would hurry up.
Sighing I close my robe and walk out. Killa now have on his night clothes consisting of boxers and a tank top and is sitting on the side of the bed thinking.
"I'm sorry" I say coming to his side "I just want to feel beautiful and wanted again, because I don't feel that way now" a single tear fall from by eye and Killa kiss it away than hold my head in his hand.
"You are beautiful" he smile at me as I kiss his hand. I grab it and intertwine our fingers, I giggle to myself as I look at by hands being swallowed by killa's "What" he asks.
"You have huge hands" I say smiling.
"Nah yours are just tiny" he say causing me to nod because it is true.
"True" I agree "I love you"
"I love you to" he state than place a soft kiss on my lips, he lay on the bed and I simply lay on his chest. That's exactly how we fell asleep in each other arms.
"Killa please just one hour I'm tired of seating in the house all day" I whine. I have literally been begging him to go somewhere any dam where. Being stuck in this house is depressing.
"What you wanna do that we can't do in the dam house, it's to dangerous for you to be out there" he snapped.
"Than come with me I just don't wanna be in this house anymore please" I beg I come to his side and place soft kisses on his neck "or we can do other things" I grab his massive hard on.
"Fine we can go out" he groan, while getting up.
"Thank God" I say smiling while walking obedience to the closet to pick out some clothes. I decided on floral knee length dress with a Jean vest and matching Tom's.
"That was foul" Killa say coming in the closet picking out his clothes.
"All fair in love and war" I say grinning.
"What you want to do anyways" he asks as he pull his black tank top with red outline on than putting on black Levi jeans and his matching Jordan's.
"Ice Cream and to the park, I need some fresh air" I explain while going to the mirror and combing my wrap out. I love this short hair, it's way easier to manage.
"You so simple" he say while chuckling and walking out the closet.
"Simple is good" I say with a smile.
"Ready?" he asks afresh putting on his Rolex.
I put on my tennis bracelet and diamond stud earrings "Yep"
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Killa and I had a ball at the park. It was like I was a big kid all over again, swinging on the swings, sliding down the slides. It was pure fun and loved it. Killa and I made it over an hour without wanting to rip each others head off. We needed to get out that house.
"We should have brought more" I say as I lick my strawberry cheesecake ice cream it is so delicious.
"You so fat" Killa chuckle as he stop at a red light.
"Babe you have to taste it" I say as I try to get him to lick the ice cream, but he absolutely hates ice cream. Ion know how, everybody should love ice cream. It's something about ice clean that makes everything okay. "Come on" I laugh.
"No, move it out my face before I slap it out your dam hand" he snap.
"Someone's grumpy" we laugh together. Looking out the window an all black Audi pulls up. I love that car, I can't wait till all this is over I'm get me one and drive just to drive "I'm get that" I say to Killa smiling while admiring the car.
"You can get whatever you want" Killa say only making me smile harder.
The tinted windows roll down and I see a barrel of a gun being pointed directly at me and Killa.
"Go" I yell as shots start to fly. Killa holds me down while pressing on the gas speeding out off.
"Are you okay?" I asks Killa.
"Yeah, what about you" he asks looking me over than a worried look comes to his face. "Your bleeding" he shout.
I look down and see a ton of blood.coming from my chest, only than did I feel the pain of the bullets. I start to spit up blood "Oh god help me" I cry out.
"Hold on baby" Killa say.
My eyes start to slowly close as a sudden peace fall over me, smiling I relax before I fall asleep I hear Killa yelling at me to say awake buy I couldn't my eyes are to heavy and I let sleep take me over.
