Soft Boy

Tye meets little Leo

Over the past week Tye and I talked everyday. Just getting to know each other and talking about what it means to be a caregiver and little. Throughout this time I'd been in littlespace but we never really talked about it. We're sitting on my couch when she starts talking about dinosaurs. I had mentioned in one of our earlier conversations that they're a littlespace trigger for me. I smile. I know what she's doing, so does she. I feel myself starting to regress. My toes start to wiggle and I get squrimy. She chuckles and pulls me closer. 

   "Why so wiggly?" she asks. I exhale loudly.

   "I dunno," I say quietly. I curl up in her arms and start to suck my thumb. Tye looks down at me and giggles.

   "Hey mister thumbsucker, don't you have a paci?" she says teasingly. I nod with my thumb still in my mouth. 
  "Well I think you should show me. Will you go get it?" Tye says excitedly. I nod and scurry off to my bedroom. When I come back I have my white dino paci. I sit on the couch and wiggle my way back under her arm. I place the paci in her hand.

   "See it? Its mine!" I say proudly. 

   "You want it?" she says circling it around my face. I follow the paci with my mouth, but never capturing it.

   "Yessss!" I say whining. Tye hold it up and looks me in the eye.

   "What do you say?" she asks. I pout. I know she wants me to say please but I'm stubborn. After I see looking cute isn't getting me anywhere I give in.

   "Pleeease!" I say with my mouth open. Tye puts the paci in and ruffles my hair. I smile and the paci I just achieved almost falls out.

   "Be careful little one," Tye says. I gasp. I can't believe I haven't shown her my toys yet!

   "Get up get up!" I say jumping to my feet and pulling Tye's hand. 

   "Woah where are we going?"she asks jumping to her feet and letting me lead her down the hall. I don't answer right away. I push open my bedroom door. My room is pretty big. On one side of my room is my twin bed with a dinosaur comforter covered with stuffies. To the left of it there was a white bedside table with a dino lamp. In the drawer of the table I have my nighttime paci attached to my favorite clip. On the wall across from my bed is a toy box and a bookcase I keep my diapees in. 

   "We're in my room!" I say happily. I walk to my toy box and grab a toy car. I start rolling it across my room and drive it into Tye's foot. I chuckle and she smiles. I look up at her and see she's still taking in her surroundings. She's probably never seen a little room before. I stand up and give her the tour. 

   "This is my closet!" I say opening the closet for her to see. I take out my favorite onesie to show her. It has dino's all over it. 

   "You look too cute in that!" she says. I blush. She probably saw pictures of it on my instagram. I put it back in my closet and take her to my toy box.

   "I keep my toys in here! I have cars and blocks and trains and rattles!" I open it up and show her. She smiles and grabs a light saber out of it. She wacks me in the stomach. I grab my pirate sword and we duel. I think she lets me win because she drops her weapon

   "Oh no! He bested me! Whatever will I do?" she says dramatically. I drop my sword and give her a big hug!

   "Don't worry! I won't hurt you!" I say happily. She rubs my back and I feel content. I bring her to my diapees next. 

   "I keep all my diapees here! I has a lot of em!" I say pointing. I watch her take it all in. I rock on my toes. She pulls one out and show me

   "This one's cute," she says holding up a ABU space. I smile big. 

   "That's my favowite! I pretend to be a space baby!" I say loudly. Tye smiles and puts the diaper back. Hanging up on my wall I have all my paci clips on a hook. I show her my dino themed one and the one that says preschool rocks and the one with trucks and cars. I show her how they clip to my clothes and make sure I don't drop my paci. Finally I show her my bed. I jump onto it and flop down.

   "Lay with me!" I say excitedly. She lays down and I snuggle onto her chest. 

   "You're completely adorable," Tye says. I hide my face in my hands and shake my head.

   "Where did Leo go? If he's not here maybe I should get going," Tye starts to lift herself up but I pull her down again.

   "I right here silly!" I say. Tye pulls me into a bear hug and rocks me gently. We sit like this for awhile and I start to get sleepy.

   "Thank you for hanging out with me miss Tye," I say shyly. 

   "The pleasure is all mine baby boy, being with you is how I like to spend my time," she says softly. I giggle and we take a nap. When I wake up Tye Is on her phone. I see her turn to look at me and quickly shut my eyes.

   "I saw you with your eyes open, darling," she says sweetly. I keep my eyes closed and giggle.

   "Leo is asleep and can't come talk right now. Please leave a message at the beep. BEEEEP" I dig my way into the middle of the bed and curl into a ball. Tye reaches into the blankets and I feel her hand on my side. I instantly know where this is going. Before I can execute an escape plan she starts to tickle me. I start wiggling and laughing and trying to get out from the enclosed space. When I finally get to the top of my bed I look like a mess.

   "You tickled me!" I say when I finally catch my breath.

   "I did?" Tye says innocently. I gasp.

   "Yes you did! You're the tickle monster!" I say laughing. I see Tye check her phone. 

   "Oh my god its getting late sweetie. Its almost 8 and I have to work in the morning," I sigh. I know what that means. 

   "Tye leave now?" I say. Tye sighs and looks at me.

   "Yeah Tye leaves now. But I'll text you tonight," Tye gets up and I follow her to the door and watch her leave. I go back up to my room and plop on my bed. Where she laid smells like her. Brown sugar and vanilla. I check my phone and naturally, no message from her yet. I snuggle my favorite stuffie and stare at my phone. I get a video chat request and my heart skips a beat. Then I realize its Aaron.

   "Hiiii!" I say in my little voice. I never really have to hide littlespace from him. He either doesn't mind or joins me.

   "Hiiii!" he says in his little voice.

   "What's up?" I ask. I already kinda know what he wants. Every time I see Tye he wants a play by play of the entire night. But I pretend like I don't know for the sake of the show.

   "How did seeing Tye go?" he asks. I don't know how to describe how amazing it was. How well our first littlespace encounter went.

   " Oh my god it was amazing! I regressed and she played with me and was my caregiver and it felt so good!" I say in a sing song voice. Aaron squeals.

   "This is so awesome! I knew you guys would go together well!" he says semi bragging. I don't mind too much.

   "I showed her my room and my toys and diapers and we took a nap together and cuddled the entire time!" I roll onto my back and play back the memory. I wish I could relive it.

   "Ugh. All four of us need to get together and hang out," Aaron says. There will definitely be time for that. But tonight I go to sleep. But not without saying goodnight to Tye.