my soul is dark and different from others..
when I touch it..
my hands turn black with ashes on it..
I can't get it off..
my fingers start turning dark..
then my hands..
then it spreads everywhere..
it doesn't leave my heart or brain..
now I'm all dark..
inside and out..
I don't know what to do..?!
should I stay like this?!..
should I change?!..
even if I change..
how am I going to do it?!..
all I see is dark..
there's no light..
but from somewhere..
I see a white dot..
is my mind playing tricks on me?!..
am I dead?!.
the small white dot turn into a big one..
I see it clearly now..
it's in front of me..
should I go to it?!..
should I touch it then?!..
or should I stay the way I am?!..
am I happy the way I am?!..
the white dot becomes an event bigger one this time it's as big as me..
it comes towards me..
and touches my hands..
which then turns white..
and slowly..
slower than the black ash..
my body turns white..
then my heart and brain too turn white..
but that's not what I'm concerned about..
my heart and brain turn black and white..
black in some places..
and white in some places..
now I think both black and white..
is that alright?!..
I don't know?!..
must be..
cuz I don't know how to think like before..
I've changed..
for good?!..
for bad?!..
my only answer is..
I don't know..?!
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feelings..
Randomsometimes when angry or stressed or something.. all stupid negative feelings just rush out and you don't know what to do but think about bad stuff.. it seems like the only thing to do.. but sometimes you gotta go into the light and see how beautiful...
