feelings..

I'm this girl.. and not..

I'm this girl who likes stuff..
but at the same time doesn't..
ik..
weird right?!..
I'm this girl who wants to be positive and spread positivity..
I'm this girl who's sensitive..
but not..
I'm this girl who wants to be just good..
but isn't always..
I'm this girl who loves horror movies..
but also comedy, drama, action etc...
I'm this girl who wants to do good..
that doesn't always happen..
I'm this girl who likes black and all dark colors..
but also likes light colors..
I'm this girl who wants to help everyone in the world.. but doubts..
I'm this girl who loves Anime TV shows..
but also likes other TV shows..
I'm this girl who wants to live a life filled with adventures..
but thinks otherwise..
I'm this weird girls who sometime thinks right is wrong and wrong is wright..
but mostly thinks the total opposite..
I'm this girls who wants everything..
but doesn't always get what she hoped for..
(metaphorically)
I'm this girl who's always day dreaming..
but not always..
I'm this girl who wants to do a lot of stuff..
but..
there's a lot of buts..
not the "but" like assess..
but the but that stops everything..
that's the end of something..
like a full stop..
or something..
ik it's stupid..
but..
that's what I want..
but it might not be what I'll get..
and it's ok..
we don't always get what we want..
right?!..
ir else we'd be happy with life..
we wouldn't complain about it..
I'm this girls who looks like she's always positive..
I'm not always..
inside I'm very negative..
and it sucks ik..
but that's how I am..
it's stupid..
ik..
but I can't help it..
I wasn't born like that..
I've just turned like that..
ik I gotta change..
but it seems very difficult..
or either I'm way too lazy to do it..
it sucks ik..