when ever anyone asks me weather or not I was prepared for an exam or a presentation..
n I would say I'm not prepared..
cuz I'm never prepared..
I'm in the process of preparing..
weather I would actually be prepared or not..
I would still give the same answer..
cuz even for a sec I would think that..
hey I'm literally prepared..
that's awesome!!..
then later on my amazing brain would have to tell me otherwise..
n then the over thinking starts..
n it's an endless supply of ifs n buts (not buts as in booty) n why's n all..
which makes me literally not prepared at all..
I'm mean are u for real brain?!..
don't u have any other work to do?!..
u know I have other problems..
n I'm not less stressed out about stuff..
so y don't u just chill..
for sometime at least..
then I try n build up some confidence..
which is pretty hard to do when ur feeling like ur not prepared at all..
n then I nice you've got a bit of confidence then it's almost alright..
but wait there's more!!..
entering the other problem..
once your about to give a presentation or an exam..
there's obviously really very fast heart beats..
shivering or hands n legs..
which makes it like oh so perfect.. (sarcastic way)
like where were you I've been searching for u..
I thought I had forgotten something..
well now it's all complete..
I'm a nervous wreck..
a confused soul..
this clumsy girl..
and but obvious not prepared..
well it's a long process..
but this is what happens to me..
I wonder..
is it just me or does it happen to others too?!..

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feelings..
Randomsometimes when angry or stressed or something.. all stupid negative feelings just rush out and you don't know what to do but think about bad stuff.. it seems like the only thing to do.. but sometimes you gotta go into the light and see how beautiful...