hurricane • graysonbaileydolan

twenty eight

I pace my room, it's two in the morning. I have school in tomorrow, technically. I have to fix my schedule. What am I doing? Go to sleep, but I can't. I just lie awake, thinking of Grayson. Of what I did wrong. I just keep thinking of what I'm going to do when I see him in the hallway and class. It doesn't even feel over. I need closure.

I groan and grab my phone, calling him.

"Skylar?" he answers, "Are you okay? Is something wrong?"

"Can you come over?" I ask,

"It's two in the morning." he says and I nod,

"I know. But I really have to talk..." I say, "Please?"

"Ill be right over." he says and I put my phone on my bed. I open my window, hoping he'll just come in through there. I sit on my bed and pull at my fingers, I'm not ready for is about to happen. "Hey..." he says and I look over, "What'd you need to talk about?"

"I need closure."

"What?"

"I still care about you and I don't want to. I hate what you did, I hate how it all went down, I hate it all. You went ever go away, though! You're always there in the front of my mind." I say, "I shouldn't care about you any more, I shouldn't even think of you anymore, you didn't give a shit, which you've told me many times, you hurt me more than anyone ever has, but you also loved me more than anyone ever has and I needed to tell you that I'm done."

"I'm sorry, you didn't deserve how I treated you."

"And you didn't deserve how well I treated you." I respond and he looks at me, "I'm done being hurt by what you did, I'm just tired of it and always thinking it over all the time."

"It hurts for me too." he says,

"But you said it didn't matter." I look at him,

"What?"

"You said we didn't really matter to you, that it was shit." I respond, "It wouldn't hurt for you if it didn't matter."

"Of course it mattered, Skylar." he says and I look at him, "I was a douche that night, and I'm sorry."

"That night?"

"Most nights, then." he says, "If I didn't care about you, I wouldn't have stayed around this long."

"If you cared about me, you wouldn't have hurt me like that." I retort and he nods, "I want this to be over. I need to be over. And that terrifies me because you've been such a big part of my life. I don't want to lose you, Grayson, I need to." I say, "So this is it. This is goodbye."

"That's it? That's goodbye?" he asks and I look at him,

"It's me taking the knife out of my heart and giving it back to you. I can't deal with the pain anymore." I say and he looks at me, "Goodbye, Grayson."

"I'm sorry, Skylar."

"I'm not." I murmur and he nods, walking out of my room. I guess he can go through the front door, plus it'd be really awkward if he left through the window then. I sit on my bed and lay back,

It's over.

hey

quick update. i don't know if this is tearjerking but i figured it'd be a good time for them to talk and for skylar to get her thoughts out and tell grayson

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