Let Me Love You

Chapter 8

As the holidays begun to come to an end both Troy and I weren't ready to go back to the hell hole of a school. If anything we didn't want the holidays to end, we had been spending so much time together that it was great, and i didn't even care how annoying he sometimes got because i was madly in love with him, it was us against the world, and know i knew what my parents had meant when they said our relationship looked like it was bound to last. Even his little sisters and friends had said "This is the happiest Troy had been with any girl" It made me happy that i was making someone else happy. Sadly when the last day of the holidays came, Troy and I made the last day of the holidays seemed like any other, more laughter, more stolen kisses and oh how we said those three beautiful words of I love you more than once. When Troy had to leave, oh how i wish he didn't have to because that night oh how my nightmares lurked, Watching him sleep would have easily soothed me or in other words calmed me down but of course it wasn't gonna happen, so i looked at our convos and it eased me. I have depression and anxiety and so far he has helped me more than anyone else, and that just adds on to how perfect he is.

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Waking up for school the next day i swear was the hardest thing, Both Troy and I were so out of schedule from having all nighter calls with one another and going to bed so late in the holidays, that we didn't really talk to each other till we got to school that day. I had trouble sleeping that night like most nights so i was extremely tired, Troy helped though by cuddling me and occasionally giving me a few kisses and eventually it woke me up, it was so annoying saying goodbye when the bell had gone at 9am , and we then had our kiss goodbye and held one another's hands. "I love you troy" "I love you too Lucy" "I'll see you at recess baby x" The first two periods didn't seem to want to end, and finally when the bell went i ran outside to find Troy as i missed him so much. When i finally found him i became a clingy bear and just wouldn't stop hugging him, i wasn't necessarily hungry so i could hug him all recess and if i got hungry i could just eat in class.  

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When the day came to an end saying goodbye to Troy seemed harder than usual, mainly because at school we only have a certain amount of time we saw each other and because Troy is a year older he's not in my classes meaning i had to wait till Recess and Lunch to see him, and because i wasn't used to saying goodbye so early i decided to walk him to the top of the hill, we had the longest kiss goodbye and the walk back alone nearly broke my heart. It hadn't even been 2 minutes and i wanted to hug him again. I then finally made it back to the bus bay and just in time to as my bus had arrived, walking onto the bus i was overly tired and could really use a nap, placing my headphones in i began listening to music and try not to fall asleep. I didn't run home that afternoon as i had no energy, and by the time i sat down in bed i had completely passed out and gone to sleep.