Let Me Love You

Chapter 11

I then hung up on him and went back to text, we were both bawling our eyes out, when he had to go to bed that night i lie feeling so hopelessly empty on my bed, letting my whole body go numb, i lie so broken, so numb and so empty i held my heart, it was shattering all over again, and i broke once more. Because of my problems, i had lost the love of my life, he said i could hate him, but i couldn't, he made me so happy, so alive, and i was so carelessly stupid. So i decided to get help, And 13 hours later we had got back together because we still loved each other. 

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That day Troy didn't go to school, he was too much of a mess and wasn't thinking straight, so it was just me and his friends. The day felt weird without Troy being around, and so I just sat quietly till the bell went, craving for the home time bell to already come so i could tell troy about my day and how i had been to see many teachers so i could at least try and get help, but when i came home he didn't come active till around 6:30, and even then i was anxious only to be reminded he had basketball training.  When he came home he was more calm and relaxed as he had let out all his emotions shooting hoops. I was glad that he felt better and then things gradually went back to normal, and tomorrow as he was starting TAFE i was having my first counselling appointment with the school counsellor to arrange to go to Headspace.

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School was just as boring as the day before without Troy, and now i had to try and become better friends with his friends without him around, in a way i thought they only put up with me because i was Troy's girlfriend but at the same time, they did seem to like me a lot, a girl named Hazel and I had become close in the group and became "Fiancees". So it wasn't that bad anymore, And as i went home that afternoon i had asked Troy about his day, instead of telling him about my boring day in classes, seeing counsellors and being surrounded by couples while missing him.