Let Me Love You

Chapter 9

By the time i had woken up, my phone had several missed calls and spamming messages from Troy, he was having an anxiety attack, staring blankly at the time on my phone i had been asleep for 2 hours, and because i used to be suicidal and stuff of course Troy was worried sick. Once again my phone rings and i answer "Omg, are you okay!" out of breathe troy managed to exhale, "Sorry , i fell asleep" and for the next 10 minutes or so i was calming him down, and telling him i was okay and he was okay and it was okay. After calming him down, i sent my streaks on Snapchat and we had our usual conversation we had. When Troy left to go have dinner that night, i began to ponder a lot of things. I knew that he cared and all, but did he ever think another girl was prettier? Or perhaps even better? I Know sometimes in a relationship you feel like you're not enough for the person or that they could do better, this was around the first time i had a very negative thought, i tried to let it slide because i didn't want to ruin my good mood, or even upset Troy if i had begun 

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As Troy soon returned from eating dinner, he then went back to gaming on his Xbox One, once again playing Skyrim. I begun to lay down under my covers and admire his features, his little freckles and gorgeous brown eyes, as he got annoyed and was trying to be funny he shouted at the tv. He always knew how to make me smile, but as the negative thought began to race i decided to take a break, and stare at the top of my bare roof. "I love you Troy" "I love you too babe" "I love you more" "No you don't" "Oh yes i do" "No you don't". And the i love you more war began, it helped me feel better and the negative thought soon slided, and as much as i felt the need to tell him, after telling him my personal stuff i think he's been through enough of my drama already. 

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As the call was getting close to and end, Troy turned off his Xbox and begun to stare at me "You're beautiful, you know that right?" "No i'm not" going bright red "Only if you could see what i see, you would be just as amazed". He then had a cheeky grin, and then said those three words once more, and they seemed to be more perfect than before "I Love you Lucy". "I love you too Troy" and as we said our final goodbyes for the night, i had regret even having a single negative thought, because he indeed loved me.