things

yes hi hello i love appreciating nct dream we don't deserve them

happy birthday u lil dumb dumb

story time (not clickbait?) :

so, in december or so, ya girl was just kinda scrolling through all the live stages she'd missed bc she's a terrible fan

and i found dream's encore thing (pretty sure it was their debut stage) with exhoe and i almost instantly fell in love with that kid with this fREAKING BEAUTIFUL SMILE?? HIS WHOLE FACE LIGHTS UP ISTG I MELT EVERY TIME IT'S SO-

anyways, i snooped around a little trying to figure out who this cutie was and what do you know

it was my lil nana 

and idk i just have so much love and respect for this boy 

i forget just how young all of these boys are because they're doing all these adult things at less than adult ages and it amazes me to no end that these incredible kids can be so hardworking and talented and compassionate and i could not be more proud to call dream my bias group. 

although i'm still kinda triggered that they're 

all

fucking

older

than

me

??????

i'm also so glad i have these role models in my life bc god knows what i would do if i didn't

looking back on this almost a year later, i can honestly say i don't know what i'd do without these beautiful boys, and i really truly don't know what i'd do without my little ball of sunshine. 

i've never been more hyped for comebacks and i've never missed an idol on hiatus so much 

now, we all know how much i suck at memorizing names and such, but i'd picked up dream's entire lineup like two hours after i got into them

istg imma miss jae sm this era like we'll never get an ot7 comeback with mark leaving after this comeback and that actually makes me so beyond heartbroken bc this was the prime fucking lineup 

i genuinely cannot explain the happiness that hits me when that gorgeous grin of his blesses my entire feed or when random updates come just when i need them 

i just really really really (ya know that's a really good song) love jaemin ty and goodnight

ALSO THOSE UPDATES OMG GOD BLESS SUDDENLY I'M LIVING IS THIS BOY ACTUALLY REAL BC I THINK THE FUCK NOT HOMIE

happy birthday you gorgeous lil bean pls stop getting older it's making a girl emo

this is a shit mess but i have a lot of love and emotions so bear with me