Kessie's Short Stories

Closer to Heaven

Originally written 7/23/2014

I am going to die.

I can't believe how dumb I am, really. I'm not even at home. Oh no, no. The Earth is so far away from me that I can see it rotate.

I don't want to die here, but I'm here because I got myself in this situation. I crossed a line when it was perfectly barricaded. I ignored the rules when I normally would have obeyed them.

But you know what?

I'm fine with it. I don't have long, only a few more minutes. No one one Earth has realized I left them. By the time they find out, it would be too late any way.

I'm sorry. I didn't mean to burden you. This is why I must die. I have to end your suffering by ending my life.

A dumb way to die, alone in space as I watch the Earth spin beneath me, but you'll never have to know. You'll never convince me that doing this was wrong. You'll never see that I am only closer to Heaven. If I end up in Hell, you'll never see me hit the ground in sick realization that everything I did was wrong.

There is no time left.

I'm sorry.

But I have no regrets.