"I do want to keep my promise to you, but at the same time, I need the relief of being in control of the pain being inflicted on myself. I want to be in control of what happens to me; is that too much to ask for?
People around me act like they want to protect me, but they are the ones who hurt me the most. I am constantly being accused and insulted, and it makes me wonder why I keep trying and why I care so much about making others happy.
Tonight, I just want to feel my pain; I want to feel my demons without being disturbed. After all, if you can't beat them, you may as well join them."
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Internal Wonders
RandomCredits to @itssskulsoom (Instagram) for the amazing drawing on the front cover. You're my best friend and a truly amazing artist, may you go far. This book is a collection of my thoughts over the years. Experience can make for an interesting tale...
