p r e t e n d | Joji

o n e

it's my birthday.

back when the sandcastle still had four strong walls.

back when it still had colourful shells meticulously placed around it, me and her would eat cake, and go shopping.

today, you picked up the plastic sand shovel and pretended.

you bought me flowers and we ate cake.

you played jokes that made me laugh for real.

we took pictures and your smile made me almost forgot we were pretending.

but then you asked me about her, and reality was like a wave destroying the sand castle of hope you pretended to build.

i know you still love her.

i know you still need her.

but joji, how can you be so good at pretending?