p r e t e n d | Joji

s e v e n t e e n

you took me to a skyscraper as a surprise. the city glittered that day. the different hues of lights sparkling beyond my eyes. we embraced the sight together, not wanting the night to be over. you pulled me into your warm embrace ;i felt safe there, and forgot about the fears i've had lately. the fear of someone following me.

he broke us apart.

everything went down so fast, i still couldn't comprehend what happened that night.

all i heard were words like you fucking cunt, you're a slut,and how dare you.

you and him were both screaming,arguing and fighting.

he took you to the ground and punched you repetitively.

my body took action before my brain could even reconsider the idea.

i foolishly attempted to the drag his body out of you.

he resisted, but i insisted.

you cried and told me to stop.

i didn't.

because this happened because of me.

maybe if i didn't think of you when i was with him, this wouldn't happen.

then
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BANG

as i fell and a wave of darkness covered my existence

i heard you screaming and felt your tears dropping on my cheeks.

but i couldn't do anything.

sorry.