p r e t e n d | Joji

e i g h t e e n

hey joji,

you remember what happened next right?

i know you still do.

from all the nightmares you've been getting lately.

oh,how i wish you'd forget.

back then, i was a sinner.

i still am.

and god knew that.

so he took away everything i ever had.

my ability to speak.

my ability to walk.

my ability to touch.

my ability laugh.

my ability to smile.

i was there, on the hospital bed, lying like a dead wild flower.

i guess you were right after all,

i am a wildflower.

i still remember the first time you saw me

the way your tears started streaming down recklessly.

you have no idea how much i wanted to wipe them off for you.

the warmth your fingers gave off when you gently wiped my tears.

at that moment, i knew i was wrong.

god didn't take everything from me.

he took almost everything.

he left me with you, and my ability to love you.

thank you.