p r e t e n d | Joji

t w e n t y - e i g h t

a/n
"brian" = rich brian
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" you go through my mind all day all night it feels like immigration"

as i walked out the hospital, i tried to feel okay.

but no matter how hard i try, i couldn't bring myself to do so.

because i realized you were my okay all this time, joji.

and the scars you gave are going to take longer to heal than i thought.

but it's alright, i know i'll heal.

not for you anymore, but for myself and for our children.

trying to bring as much positive energy into myself, i tried to think of the good memories we had.

cherry blossoms when we went to school together

dinner with your parents

us at prom

that night, you and your yellow umbrella

thoughts were running in so fast i did not realize my body had stopped moving due to dizziness.

"hey, are you okay?"

a strange yet extremely familiar voice asked from the back.

"y...yea... i'm sorry for blocking the way..."

i tried to sound steady as i controlled my dizziness.

i turned around and gave him a reassuring smile when i realize who he was.

he seemed to realize who i was as well.

"haru? never thought we'd meet again!"

"brian... no, wait, it's "rich brian" now, right?"

i tried to sound as cheerful as i could while my surroundings were extremely blurry.

"i guess i don't have to do the awkward new neighbor talk now. damn, that's lucky."

we tried to keep the talk as light hearted as possible.

avoiding our scars

avoiding our fears

avoiding us

we smiled so brightly at each other as we parted.

i walked to my room trying not to feel dizzy any longer.

"haru!"

his voice stopped me, but it did not stop everything from spinning in lightning speed around me.

"i've missed you"

i smiled as everything slowly turned into darkness.

losing my consciousness, i felt a warm embrace round me.

it was the warmth of childhood memories, of first love and first encounters.

and for the first time since you left,joji, i feel at home.

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a/n
sorry for not updating... i had finals.
anyways, thank you so much for reading!

question: rich brian in the story or nah