Zindagi Kitni Haseen Hai

Part 24

➳ oh, you and I, we can make it if we try

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Anika's Pov

I was finally back home. This was one of the worst days of my life. I should've known that he was just like everyone else.

He didn't want me anymore because he wasn't going to be my first. Maybe I disgusted him. He came out just as bad as every other male in my life and I thought he was different.

"Ani, what happened?", Shirley kept bugging me. I didn't want to tell her but I couldn't stop the overwhelming embarrassment of being rejected.

"He doesn't love", I sobbed. My eyes felt sore from all the crying and there were no tears left to cry.

"Shivaay?", she asked me. Well, I never had feelings for anyone so wasn't it obvious?

"Who else? Do I look like a bitch to you?", I snapped. I knew I was going back to the violent me so I tried to take deep breaths but they didn't seem to work.

"What happened? Please, tell me?", Shirley was the only person I could trust anything with.

"I told him about what happened to me. He seemed shocked, I asked him if he still wanted to be but he didn't say anything?", I cried.

Shirley looked at me then pulled me into a hug. She kept playing with my hair which partly calmed me but it also reminded me of him.

After some time she left to get some food for me. I was sitting on the floor, staring at nowhere. I felt so empty. Why did my happiness always last so short?

He didn't want me. Why? He always acted like he'd be there for me, no matter what. And now, when I expected him to be by my side, he left.

I ran towards my cabinet and started looking for the pills. I should've never changed. My life was so much better before Shivaay. I was lying to myself but it didn't matter.

I took out as many as possible and grabbed the glass full of water. I was to take them when someone pushed my hand and all the pills fell down. It frustrated me.

"Why would...", I couldn't finish the sentence because I saw Shivaay standing in front of me and he didn't look happy.

"I can't believe you were going to do this?", he yelled at me. Why was he all of the sudden acting like he cared about me?

"You don't tell me what to do", my teeth clenched. I looked at him furiously. This made him more angry. He grabbed my arms and pulled me against him.

"I love you and I know, I'm late but I do. I care about you more than I ever did about someone else. You mean so much to me and I can't imagine losing you. So, don't you dare to do this again because I've planned out all our future and that can't happen if you'll leave. I want you now, I'll want you tomorrow and every day for the rest of my life Because I don't give two shits about your past, who you're today, matters the most to me. And today, you love me"

I looked at him shocked. Shivaay, still wanted me, even after hearing all the bad things I had told him. My body felt stiff.

"Say something", he whispered.

"I'm speechless", I told him and he grinned. I grabbed his face and pulled him closer so that I could meet his lips.

They tasted so sweet yet a bit salty, which I found weird but the good weird. Shivaay's hands were wrapped around my waist, he was going to deepen the kiss when we heard someone coughing. We pulled away.

"Um, Shirley, what a great timing you have", he sounded sarcastic.

"Hands away from my sister", she glared at him. I just started at both of them. Everything felt like a dream.

"So, when are you guys going to get married?", hearing this, Shivaay's eyes popped out. I blushed.

"Once uncle comes back", he replied and it was my turn to widen my eyes.

"What?", I asked him surprised and he just gave me a goofy smile.

"Yeah, we don't want any kids before marriage", Shirley laughed and I rolled my eyes.

"You'd be surprised because me too", Shivaay looked so innocent when he said that. This man drove me crazy.

"I'm still here, guys", I interrupted their kids.

"I know, darling", Shivaay looked at me. There was something in his eyes, mischievousness.

"Y'all want to eat something?", she asked and I nodded.

Shirley left. I felt nervous because we were all alone, again. I looked at Shivaay, who was already staring at me which made me blush.

"You sure you'll never leave me again?", I confirmed. I just didn't want to relive that moment ever again.

"Never", he whispered and kissed my forehead. I smiled and believed him because I had no other option.
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Can you guys hear the wedding bells?

Take care, Amna :)