Being Caleb's Twin Sister {Editing}

Chapter 23

Catrina's POV

It's been 3 days since... Well you know. I still haven't wrapped my head around it. I always have the urge to go in his room and rant to him about everything really. Our parents decided to keep his room the way it was before he... So every time I go to his room I see his trophies, his bed, everything that belonged to him. And his bed. That rips me apart. The last place I saw him was in his bed. Well technically a hospital bed. But before that. The last place at home I saw him. I've replayed the moment a million times. The moment I went to wake him up and he didn't move. The moment they confirmed his death. The moment they covered his body and made us leave. Everything. It's been three whole days. I haven't eaten much. My parents don't understand. I was closer to Caleb then anyone. We were twins. We were in the womb together. Now he's just gone! I can't do this! I haven't been in the vlog since it happened. I barely talk to Jake anymore. I keep wishing I spent more time with Caleb and less with Jake. It kills me. Caleb's gone. He's really gone. Like never coming back. 

"Catrina?!" My mom calls from downstairs. I don't answer her. Instead I sit on my bed hugging my pillow as the tears continue to stream down my face. "Catrina!" My mom yells again. I sigh. She comes into my room and sighs. "Cat..." She says hugging me. I cry harder. "Baby you've been crying for 3 days." She says stroking my hair. "I know.. I ju-st ca-can't be-lieve he's g-g-g-g-gone." I cry. "Neither can I." She sighs. "I still remember our inside jokes. Like our little llama llama twin drama thing we did whenever we had stuff to rant about. Or the times we used to sit on the couch forever and just play video games. It's all gone! All of it! And I can't get it back!" I say almost yelling. My mom sighs. "I don't know if this will help but I wanted to give you this." She sighs putting her hand in her pocket and taking out a folded picture. She hands it to me and I unfold it and look at it. It was a picture of Caleb. I sigh and hug the picture. "Thank you mom." I say getting up and putting the picture by my picture frame with Caleb's picture in it. "Can I have one of his shirts?" I ask. She nods. I walk in his room and grab his baseball shirts with his name on the back and a number 7. I hug it tightly and sigh. This is how its gonna be. I'm gonna hold onto memories through pictures. Because that's all I have. All that's left of him.
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Bad/boring chapter.. I know. My school starts in 3 days so my mind is set on that. UGHHH I HATE SCHOOL!!!!