Only My Bully?

Part 18

Part 18

"She seemed happier without him. Or was it all fake"

Selena's POV

I locked the door and sat behind the door sobbing uncontrollably. I shook my head letting out tears that I couldn't stop.

How could he make me feel like this?

I didn't mean for any of this, so why was he blaming for everything?

I couldn't deal with all of this.

He was my best friend.

Like I understood that his dad made me act like some type of role model for Justin.

I got that.

His dad sucks.

But it still didn't give him the right to make me feel like shit.

Did he realise he was acting like his dad?

I heard a knock on the door but I ignored it laying my head back against the wall. I looked up to the ceiling and it seemed fuzzy due to my tears blurring my vision.

I shook my head.

"Why?" I asked not really anyone in particular but I just felt the need to ask. "What did I do to deserve this?" I whispered closing my eyes.

I just wanted to feel nothing because I was feeling everything.

I just wanted to block everything out as the walls felt like they were closing in.

I just wanted to scream but crawl up in my bed hugging the soft material and drift into sleep.

I didn't want to feel anything.

"Selena" I heard a whisper from the opposite side of the door and I shook my head harshly like the voices were in my head and I wanted them to get out.

"I'm sorry" the same voice whispered sounding more familiar and I could tell that it was Justin.

I shook my head.

I couldn't deal with his bullshit right now.

He couldn't just kiss me and say sorry every time he fucks up with me.

He had 8 years of hate inside of me that ran out because he was filling me with it.

And it was working.

Because I did feel hate.

"Go away" I chocked wanting to sound harshly but I felt my throat clog up.

Suddenly, it turned quiet but I knew he was still there.

There was a warmth that came across my body causing me to shiver slightly and I gulped holding back the tears the were yet to come.

I heard a sigh from Justin causing me to frown knowing he wasn't going to leave but I forced myself to not feel anything towards Justin except for hatred.

"Justin, what are you sitting against Selena's door?" I heard Patties ask realising he was in the same position as I was but on the other side.

I tried to hear what Justin's answer was but I couldn't.

I heard muffling which turned into a commotion causing me to let out a groan as I couldn't tell what they were saying before I heard a knock on the door.

I ignored it and rested on the door feeling empty.

"Selena, are you ok?" Patties voice entered and I shook my head even though she couldn't see me.