Roommate Scars

Six

He pulled me into a kiss. I pulled back a little but I don't stop it completely. He stopped.
X: I'm sorry, that wasn't right. I know you and Maz are-
I interrupted him by kissing him.
Me: It's okay, now we're even.
I got off of him and went to my room. I got in my phone, and went to Snapchat.
The Snap..
"I'm with my bros, chill-"
"SHE EAT PUSSY AND SO DO I!" Jahseh screamed in the background.
"Shut up."'I laughed
I posted it not thinking about it, but a bunch of people started following me and I got a bunch of dms, and snaps. I knew the people following me was either people from my Instagram or was from X.
Viral Pussy Hoe

I got a text from.... Maz.
Maz- Ifnyou wanted to be with X you didn't have to lie about that and say you cheated.
-I'm not with X.
Maz- So you did lie.
- Look, I didn't want to leave you but I had to. I needed to protect myself.
Maz- FROM WHAT? Me?
- No. I can't tell you what I've been hiding but just know I still love you.
Maz- Just not enough to tell me this 'secret'
-I'm sorry.
Maz- If u rlly loved me, or if ur rlly sorry, you would tell me. You would feel guilt and give in by telling the truth.
- But that's what I'm scared of.
Maz- What ever is, does it affect what we have or had?
- Not necessarily.
Maz- What do u mean?
- It's more so about me, but can affect u based on how u feel.
Maz- Bye Thunder.
- Bye Lightning.

Seeing my nickname, Thunder coming from him felt like my heart skipped a beat. In high school Maz called me Thunder, because he said I was always one to strike. The nickname Lightning came from me, I named Maz that because he brought light to my life.
Just seeing those nicknames made me want to cry, so I let it out. I'm a silent crier and I was hoping no one heard me.

Wifi
I was walking out my room and Rain's rom is directly in front of mine. I heard sniffing and then I could telll she was crying. I'm not the one to comfort people and I don't know why she would be crying so I got X.
Me:*whispers* Rain's crying.
X: Well ask her why nigga.
Me: You know I'm not good with that shit.
We just went on and on about who was gonna comfort her.
Rain
I was still crying until I could hear the boys talking about me.
I walked to the door to listen. I opened it.
Me: No one has to comfort me, I'd rather be alone. And I'm fine.
X: If you're crying you're not fine.
Me: I'm a female I go threw emotions, I'm fine.
Wifi: Don't try and use your sex as an excuse.
Me: Fine. I hate that I'm bisexual okay, I said it. My boyfri- ex doesn't know and probably hates me for leaving him. He knows I lied about the whole cheating thing. Now that I've gotten off my chest can I go die alone.
X: No, but you can actually talk to him and tell him.
Me: X... No. I'm not ready, and I don't want anyone to know. I hate myself for it.
X: but if you except it and realize that it's okay and express that then you won't hate yourself.
Me: It's easier said then done.
X: I bet but holding it in won't make it better.
I walked back in my room, angry. I was mad at the fact that he was right. I'm not ready to tell him, but I know I will never be....