Lippa One Shots

Darkness

****Forewarning of this part, it is a bit dark, and maybe trigger some things for people who are not ready or at a good place to read this chapter. Please read at your own risk and please for the love of piggies. You're loved!!! I'll put a picture of my pet pig for you guys to enjoy after!****

"You're worth nothing. Nothing will ever be normal for you. You're worthless, pathetic. Just look at you. Ugly and no one wants you."

I cried. Tears flowing down my cheeks but no sound came out. My thighs were covered in blood from the cuts. I didn't think of myself as a cutter, but... Once I started, I couldn't stop...

"Oh stop your pathetic crying. No one cares about you."

I wiped my tears and stared at the blood. I was worthless and pathetic. Everything was over for me. There was nothing left for me at all and noting was ever going to be the same once word got out about me.

"It's your fault you slept with them. Your fault he beat you. Your fault that he never really loved you. That's why he left you for someone new. Someone better. Someone who promises a better future for him. You're just broken."

The tears spilled out once again when the voices came to my mind. They were right... I was worthless... Pathetic.. Never wanted... No one was going to miss me if I left... I was just a paycheck to them... Nothing more, but much less probably...

"Pippa! Where are you?!" I heard someone yell. I locked the door to my room and let the tears fall from my face. I couldn't bare to see anyone right now... I just couldn't....

"You don't want to see anyone."

I placed my hands over my ears and screamed. Anything to get these voices away from me...

"Go ahead Phillipa. No one will miss you. No one cares that you're here. They don't want to hear you scream..."

I picked up the scissors I had been using to cut my thighs with and continued... The pain..

"Pippa! Open the door!" Whoever it was, they were trying so desperately to get in.. Banging and probably trying to kick down the door. My hands were covered in my own blood... I ran my hand through my hair and continued to cry... Nothing was going to make me happy here... Nothing was ever going to make me happy. I was desperately trying to fit in here and it wasn't working...

"I'm worth nothing..." I sniffed.

"Oh dear. Our little Phillipa has come to her senses."

"Must be time for you to go now isn't it."

"Pippa! Please open up!" I heard his voice... Lin's... The one who left me... "Please I'm sorry!" He called.

I tried standing but felt myself being dragged down... I saw something holding my ankles and frowned... The figure lifted itself from the shadows below me and held out it's hand. I took it and let it lead me to my closet. I had no idea where I was going, but it felt right. The shadow pointed at my belts and I grabbed them. It began to put them together until it realized I had no where to hang the belts from. The shadow threw the belts onto the floor and turned from a dark grey, to a pitch black color...

"What are you doing?" I asked it.

"Don't you want to be happy again Phillipa?"

Yes....

"Then come with me. You'll get all the happiness you deserve..."

The shadow had started becoming more and more into a human shape.. It held my hand and led me to my window. I frowned and looked down at the busy street below me.... How was I supposed to do this? I sat in the window wondering how long it would take me to get down there... The shadow sat with me, grinning about me sitting here. I felt a rush of sadness once again... I would never see another sunrise.. Never see another sunset...

"Never see another world of hurt... Never see the ones who brought you pain... Never see him again... Never see... You..."

"Pippa!" The door behind me had finally gave way and I felt a pair of hands pulling me from the window. I opened my eyes and saw Lin above me. His eyes red and puffy from crying. "What the hell do you think you're doing?" He cried while putting his hands on my shoulders. He shook me a bit and then hugged me. "Please don't ever, ever do that again.." He sniffed.

"I want to..." I whispered. He let go of the hug, but kept a tight grip on my shoulders. "I don't belong here..." I said blankly. "My life is over."

"Pippa... Please, please don't talk like this.." He cried.

"Things aren't meant to be anymore." I said while standing up. Lin grabbed my wrist and pulled me away from the window. "Lin! They're calling me..." I whispered.

"Come Phillipa.. Be with us. Ignore him... You'll be happier with us."

"Phillipa! Come! Come with us! We're much better!"

"Happiness if you cross the line... The boundaries they have put up on you are no more. You must cross now to be happy."

Lin had pulled on my wrist and eventually engulfed me in a hug.

"Pippa please don't do this.. You have so much to live for.. I can't speak for everyone but you know I love you... I love you so much.. I don't know why I ever left you.. You were perfect... Please stay here..." He cried into my back. "Please Pip.." I pushed away from him and pushed him out of the room. "No!" He yelled as I shut the door. I grabbed the scissors and started cutting everywhere I could... Eventually I couldn't feel anymore and fell to the ground. I felt my entire body starting to go numb and let the darkness consume me.