Heart Of Dragons

...10...

I had sent Joreid back to our dorm. She didn't want to go but she also didn't have a choice over this. I guess she was just worried about me. 

"Will you be fine on your own?" She asked me before leaving.

"I'm learning to become a dragon rider. Why wouldn't I?" I chuckled.

She didn't look very convinced but as I said she didn't really have a choice but to listen to me. "Okay... but please come back today. And don't be back too late, too. Deal?" Joreid held out her pinky finger.

"Really?" I chuckled at her way sealing promises. Just like me.

"Please... Just promise me."

I intertwined my pinky finger with hers. "Deal."

I stood in the middle of the woods and looked how her silhouette slowly faded away as she walked back looking back every few steps she took, still wary about what she was doing.

My mind was filled with many thoughts and I needed to release them. So it kinda did make my walk a little bit more important.

He likes you...

Me?

Pfff.. It can't be true. He definitely has feeling for me but I know one for sure - they aren't that.

I'm sure Joreid is just seeing things. It can't be right because of many many things.

One - what's there to like? I'm not even THAT pretty. Also I have got quite an attitude, what most girls don't have, which should be a turn off. I'm just not likable since it's very hard to get along with me.

Two - We like just met. Yesterday to be more specific.

Three - Since when rudeness was considered as a sign of liking. I wouldn't say that he's just rude. Aerinmus dislikes me. I can see it in his attitude. I'm just an empty useless space in our group to him. By all means - continue to think that. If only you and others knew. 

Maybe this sounds too confident but it's the truth - I'm more stronger and more capable of many things than they all together. I wanted my father to be proud of me, not be a failure in the family considering our status, so I trained since I was little. Maybe I weren't allowed to ride dragons but I could do anything else to my hearts content. Most of my fun time considered of trained to step up for myself and kick someone's ass if needed. Yes, Fighting. I had learned to defend myself on my own.

My mind drifted onto many other topics I was worried about until I stumbled upon a pretty important one.

I shouldn't be worried about my skill on dragons, right? I laughed at myself sarcastically. No, why would I?

The worst part was that I actually was worried.

I sighed. I'm not that thought on the inside as I might look or sound from the outside. I might be intimidating but I still can be not too sure of what I'm doing at times. My mind can be stupid and I know that. It's just that knowing that others see me as nothing scares and angers me at the same time.

Really... people do think so low of me. Sometimes I feel like they aren't wrong in doing so but it destroys your self confidence even more. Which is bad considering where am I and who am I supposed to be.

I don't know what had gotten into me but I started hysterically laughing. Probably because of the situation I am in and all the confusing emotions that are passing me.

"WHY THE HELL NOTHING IS GOING THE WAY I WANT IT TO BE??!" I screamed at the top of my lungs trying to get all the pent up stress out of me. But I do hope that I am a good distance away from our academy. I should be.

I picked up a brunch and threw it so hard that it smashed against a tree and broke into two parts. But with that done I saw a small but noticeable movement behind it.

"Hello?" I asked unsure. As I didn't get a response I continued my way mumbling "Maybe it was nothing and I'm seeing things."

I felt uneasy as I walked deeper into the forest. I kept my senses more up now. My brain couldn't throw away the thought of someone also being here.

Suddenly I heard a low cracking noise coming from behind not too far away. I quickly spun around and I'm pretty sure that someone hid behind a tree.

I decided to check who it was and as I was getting nearer and nearer I heard someone panic whispering, "Shit! Shit! Shit! What do I do? She noticed me. Holly shit. I'm dead meat. Shi-"

"Gnupa?" I asked as I saw the poor boy shutting his eyes close so tightly in hopes of not being noticed. At which he was bad.

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I know I promised constant updates... aish. Please spare me (if someone even is reading this)

Also I'm sorry for not keeping up the story interesting. >-<

At least I think that it isn't what I expected it to be. But please say something in the comments because I don't know what to think and with that I'm getting... confused? scared?