It was longest drive of my life, and I realised this could be the longest drive but the best or the worst could come out of it. I could see the fear in Andys face as we neared the hospital, many times before when we had been here it had been for my depression but now we had come for what could be the best day of our lives. Me and Andy had been through so much in our relationship; my affair with Brook, my depression, Andys band swap, Andys X factor experience, Rye almost killing me after he found out about my affair. The list goes on, but now we were settled and I was clean 8 months now, slowly my depression is getting better thanks to Andy and the boys. But now we had to go back into the hospital.
Andy pulled up in the parking lot and helped me to the main entrance on the maternity ward, but I suddenly froze like someone had grasped me to stop me walking. Obviously nobody had but I couldn't move flashbacks of the last time I was in the main hospital came gushing back at me. Andy calmed me down but by then my cheeks where tear stained and my eyes were puffy.
Wow. I wasn't expecting that (I HAD TO QUOTE SONG LYRICS OKAY). We hurried in and went up to the desk. "Hey there, Currently I'm 38 weeks pregnant and I've just gone into labour." The woman at the desk rolled her eyes, "Name." God what did I ever do to her. "Jessica Fowler." Yes I legally changed my last name before the wedding, I wanted to make sure the Birth certificate had Fowler as both our names just so it looked right.
*flashback* April 10th 2016 -
We'd just got back from our little holiday in LA and the boys decided that they would take me out and leave Andy to clean up.
"If he's staying I am" I told them straight.
"Jess go. I have things that need to be planned, which you don't know about. I promise I'll make it up to you tonight."
I gave in I went out to Nandos with the boys.
After Nandos, Jack wanted to go home. He pulled his phone out of his pocket and started texting someone. Hmmm...
We pulled out of the car park to go home.
The boys took they're sweet time walking upstairs, so I decided I go alone because they were taking so long.
I knocked on the door and waited for an answer.
There wasn't one so I opened the door to see, red. Red petals trailed over the floor and a candle lit living room. All the petals in the living room spelt out 'Will you marry me'.
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Cause I cry at literally anything cute, I just stood there and nodded at him to say yes.
*End of flashback*
She took us too my room where I had to get ready and Andy had to tell the boys we were here and it was happening at some point. Basically earlier than what we were told. But then it hit me my affair with Brook was just over 40 weeks ago. Could it be his. No. No. No. It can't be. No.
I quickly texted Brook telling him on what I had just thought cause who remembers if they wore protection, the one who wore it or the one it went inside. Best bets is the one who wore it.
I had to hide my fear from andy so I carried on getting ready and sat on the bed. Now it was time for a long journey together as a family... • • • • • • • • • • • • HEYYYYY I HAVE ACTUALLY MISSED WRITING LIKE WHAT!!!!! ANYWAY I SAW THE BOYS ON MONDAY AND MAY OR MAY NOT HAVE BEEN SWITCHING IN AND OUT OF LANES CAUSE OF SOME PRETTY CUTE MOMENTS BUT YANO ITS GUCCI, ALWAYS STAY WITH YOU'RE FIRST CHOICE IT WORKS OUT WELL. TRUST ME. ANY WHOOO, IM OFF LOVE YOU ALL 💕 - JESS 👑🌵❤️
