My Badboy Husband (On Hold)

Chapter 6

Chapter 6: If it wasn't for you

Isabella's POV

The girls had already rushed me back home after the incident at the salon. Carter wasn't taking it well. He didn't let me see that very violent part of him but by the sound of things colliding and breaking I knew he was loosing his temper upstairs. He never lets me see him get too angry and I never really know why.

I stood under the shower head watching as the cool water glided down my body..not exactly everywhere on my body just the scar on my right leg.

Looking at the scar the memories of yesterday came crashing back to me instantly

Sean was her fiancé?
He kicked her out their house
And now she's blaming me

To tell the truth though if I was in her place I would blamed me too. After all it was because of me that he died. Come to think of it maybe all of this mess really is my fault. If I had just ignored carter when I just started college or maybe change rooms none of us might not have been stuck in all of this. But then again I wouldn't even have gotten the chance to feel what love really feels like and I'm way too selfish to wish I had never been with Carter, He's changed me in more ways than I can count. I wish I could go back and change the past but the alternate future is what scares me, I don't think I cant image a life without Carter by my side especially now that I've grown to him so much. Despite how wrong he may seem for me or despite what other people think of him he really is just a very lovable person if he wants to be. But I still just can't seem to deny the fact that this wouldn't have happened if it wasn't for me.

All I wanted to do was spend my life with someone I love. To have a happy family and an amazing life. And I did end up finding that person but what came with him was nothing I had planned for or expected.

Why is life so unfair most of the time..as a matter of fact all the time. You never know what's coming your way until it blows up in your face.

What if she does get through with killing me or worse carter. I can't lose him, I couldn't continue living without him here. I couldn't continue life knowing that my first and only true love was killed and for what, vengeance against me, the guilt of that would have probably killed me itself. Right now he's my only source of happiness apart from my family and my girls. I can't image a life without him by my side making sure I'm alright and always checking up on me.

I just want a normal life.

I was snapped out my thoughts by someone turning off the shower and wrapping a towel around my body. I looked up to meet carters worried and concerned eyes as he lifted me out the bathtub to stand in front of him.

I never even realized I was crying until his thumb swiped away a tear from my cheek." What's wrong?"he asked worry evident in his voice as he pulled me close to him wrapping his hands around me.

"This is all my fault"I said as the tears began falling again. Saying it out loud made an even bigger lump for in my throat making me feel as if I was suffocating. I sniffled into his shirt as he soothingly rubbed my back

"No its not" he answered

"Yes it is!"I argued taking him off guard"if it wasn't for me this wouldn't have happed"

I felt as his index finger slowly brought up my chin so I was staring into his eyes"And if it wasn't for you I wouldn't have known the true meaning of love" he replied back as I immediately felt weak in the knees. Those words touched my heart in a way that made my whole body go numb."think about the good things"he said"if it wasn't for you shawn and mell would have met,if it wasn't for you right now kells and mell wouldn't have found the greatest best friend anyone could ask for and if it was for you I wouldn't have stopped doing the things I use to do" he said not breaking eye contact." Think about how special you are. Jane is just saying those things to get in your head none of this is your fault"

He was right. None of those amazing things probably wouldn't have happened if not for me. Just the thought of it makes a small smile creep it's way to my lips. I nodded my head in agreement.

I wrapped my hands around him hugging his body to me tightly as he hugged back. He just always knows how to lift my spirit in the darkest times. That's one of the reason why I know I couldn't survive without him. I would have probably killed myself with my crazy thoughts.

"Thank you" I mumbled into his shirt.

"Anytime princess" he said making me giggle at his recently common nickname. He leaned his forehead against mine as I stared up at him

"What on earth would I do without you Carter?" I thought out loud.

"I don't know and I don't intend on finding out." he shook his head"as long as I'm living I'll always be by your side no matter what it takes" he answered making my heart beat a thousand times faster." And I will always love you"

Yup he just killed me, he killed me with his love

"I love you to-" was my last words before he crashed his lips onto mine. Our lips moved in synch together with his hands held firmly around my waist and my hands placed on his chest.

We continued kissing before he slowly moved down to place small kisses down my neck.

Letting a small moan leave my lips I leaned my head to the side to give him better access. Enjoying this amazing moment he leaned up taking my lips with his again before giving me a small peck and smiled down at me as I did the same

"Now, let's go get you dressed before I devour you"he smiled,biting his bottom lip looking down on my body only in a towel.

"Dirty"

"Only for you princess, only for you"he mumbled behind me as my cheeks flushed bright pink.

Damn you Knowles, damn you

I know its short but I just wanted to update. Please continue voting ready and commenting my lovelies.

Sherr