My Badboy Husband (On Hold)

Chapter 43

Chapter 43: Feelings and traveling

Isabella's POV

I stare expectantly into his green eyes as he looks at me from across the couch. I am relieved that he has finally decided to let me in about this strange girl from his past, but the pained look in his eyes as he lets out a long sigh has me rethinking if I even want to know.

I'm beyond confused at the moment and despite the many hours of sleep I got last night my body still feels exhausted and drained. Just the mere thought of being dragged deep into another hurtful situation like always makes me want to just believe whatever he's about to say and drop the whole topic, just to save myself the ocean of tears I know will follow.

"As my father had already said, Rebecca is one of my ex girlfriends " he starts staring down at his hands that were busy fumbling with each other. " I met her one day when my dad and her father were having a meeting about some money that they owed each other" he continued still his eyes not once looking up to meet mine" We started dating a few weeks after that and it's like my dad and her teamed up to make my life hell. I realized her disgusting ways after a couple months of us being together and dumbed her right after. My dad wasn't too pleased with the idea"

"Why" I question through curiosity. I don't want to push it but I just need everything to be clear so I won't have to be torturing myself with the dreadful thoughts that are already forming in the back of my head.

"You probably don't know this but before I became the boss of the gang my father was" he confesses looking up to meet my expression as my eyes widened with shock and disbelief.

What?

"What?" I repeat the word that circles my mind. "Really?"

"Yeah" he confirms" not many people know this, hell not even the guys do." he doesn't talk about his father much so I'm not surprised by that the least bit.

"So that's why you took up the role of the next leader?" I question

"Took up the role?" he scoffs instantly" the man practically forced me to take his place when I was just only sixteen years old only because he was scared they'd take him out due to all the depths he way in" he adds as a very visible flash of hurt mixed with anger circles his eyes." I was stupid back then and only thought of the money and power it would bring. I didn't think of the fact that I would have someone to take care of in the long run. To protect from the darkness that lurked in this world, someone to make happy, to raise a family with" he continues as his eyes travel down to my swollen stomach. His hand lifts up to rest on it as he rubs my belly gently. My heart ached for him and I reached up and placed my hand on his to somehow try and comfort him. It seemed to have worked when he looks up at me and a small smile brightens his features.

"I thought you two separated when you were younger?" I crease my eyebrows at the realization

"We were" he confirms" Him and my mom had a divorce when I was 12 years old. I hated him for leaving her ever since" he continues to let me into the sad horror story that is his past" he came around occasionally and that's how he had me blindsided by the thoughts of becoming a gang leader. And that's how he got me into being around him more and that soon led to me meeting Rebecca" he glares down at the floor at the mention of her name. "I even tried backing out after a while but they wouldn't let me" he shook his head as his green eyes looked like there were in a completely different place, remembering everything.

"Why didn't you get help?" I question. I could already feel the warm tears building up in my eyes, threatening to pool out, to make me feel weak but I tried my best to keep my emotions at bay. Not just for myself but for him too. I needed to be strong for him while he was this vulnerable.