My Badboy Husband (On Hold)

Chapter 45

Chapter 45: I promise

Isabella's POV

The sound of my blood rushing through my ears and my heart hammering against my chest made it almost impossible for me to focus on what jax was saying on the other end of the line. I tried with every fiber of my being to avoid direct eye contact with Carter in that moment but when the very noticeable anger begins to cloud his green eyes and he quickly stands to his feet, all my senses seem to have flown through the window leaving me to look like a blubbering idiot.

"Hello, isabella are you still there?" jax's voice sounds through the speaker as I quickly try to leave the room without this turning into a complete thunder storm. As my hand grabs the doorknob I am gently pulled back and turned around to stare up into a pair of angry  green eyes and I harshly press the phone to my ear through fear of him yanking it away from me.

"Yes I'm still hear" my voice trembles with fear as he stares down at me with clenched jaws and knitted eyebrows. "But.. I um.. I don't think now is a very good time to talk " I say as carter holds onto both ends of my t-shirt to prevent me from moving. "Why?" he asks.

"End the call" Carter says through gritted teeth and I try to cover the speaker so jax doesn't hear but I was just a second too late.

"It's him isn't it?" jax asks and I can practically hear the pain behind his voice" he doesn't want you to talk to me does he?"

I'm left completely blank as I search through my head for a possible reply that won't hurt him but nothing seems good enough and I stand quietly unable to say anything to ease the pain I know he's feeling right now.

"Isabella hang up the phone " Carter repeats and I ignore his voice as I hear jax sighs on the other end.

"Fine if he doesn't want you to talk to me then okay but make sure to tell him that no matter how hard he tries to pull you away from me he will never be able to destroy the friendship that we have" he says and I bite the inside of my cheek to prevent the rush of tears that I feel building up. " I'll talk to you some other time, okay"

"Okay, bye" I say and remove the phone from my ear. The room is complete silence and I make it a point to not say anything to Carter first in case he decides to leak out all the anger on me. As I place the phone in my pocket jax's words are still left floating around my mind like a wild tornado. The thought of Carter completely ruining whatever me and jax has left as friends makes an uncomfortable feeling take over my chest and I try with everything in me to not think about that. We have both already lost so much of the closeness we once had growing up but I just can't think of us no having anything at all.

"Why did he call you?" he finally asks

"I don't know "I shrug and try to remove his hands from my shirt but he doesn't allow me to. I look confusingly up at him and he sighs.

"I though I told you I didn't want you talking to him" he says and I can already feel the trouble brewing up.

"Carter please, not right now. The day has been going good so far and I really don't want a simple phone call to ruin that"

"I don't care I though we already made this clear" he finally lets go of my shirt"I don't want you having anything to do with him, at all"

"You can't tell me who and who I can and cannot talk to Carter this is my life and your acting completely stupid right now trying to tell me something like that"

"See this is exactly the problem,  your just so stubborn! " he yells throwing his hands about" All I ask is that you avoid him and yet you have him calling your fucking phone. I don't want him talking to you. What in that is so hard to understand "

"Everything Carter everything!" I yell back through frustration "How the hell do you expect me to just randomly stop talking to someone who was so close to me"

"Exactly was close to you" He fires back, the cold, threatening glint in his eyes causing my anger to surface even more. My small hands ball into fists and I fight the urge to just tackle him to the damn floor.

And to think I thought we could spend just one peaceful weekend together. Just a normal weekend of relaxing and forgetting all the problems that were still knocking on our door. But no I was wrong, this is life we're talking about here, better yet my life.

I let out a small sigh trying to relax myself. The last thing I want right now is another huge argument between us considering everything else that's trying to pull us apart. " You know what I'm not even going to fight with you about this" I finalize folding my hands over my chest. " I'm tired of us causing such a big fuss over stupid stuff like this, why can't we just deal with a problem without causing a fight and yelling at each other"

"Baby I'm not trying to fight with you" he says softly taking a step towards me as his eyes soften

"Then why are you yelling at me like that then ?" I question as my hands fall to my side.

He sighs running a hand through his large curls and focuses on something next to me on the floor as an unfamiliar emotion swirls over his facial features. He ignores me for a moment before his eyes flicker to me and then back to the floor again as if he's in deep though. "Because.. " he begins to say still focusing on the floor while his eyebrows were pulling together and his slips were curved in a deep frown"I'm already stressing over everything  else that's been happening and then him calling is just not really making things any much better. I know I sound like a complete idiot yelling at you and I'm I really sorry but I just need him to back off.. at least for now" he shrugs the last part" You two have some weird bond that I don't quite get or like really but I know no matter how hard I try you won't stop talking to him but for now I just really need you to lay off of him a bit and focus on us"

"Carter " I sigh walking towards him. My hands wrap around his neck and his hands held onto my waist" I stare up at him and he looks back down at me, the same frown lingering longer on his lips that I liked. "I know you don't like jax because of what he did-"

"Damn right I don't" he cuts me off to say and I almost laugh at his response.

"But jax will never distract me from us" I continue as my hand gently caresses his cheek. He visibly relaxes under my touch and the tension in his shoulder has disappeared almost completely as his begins to lean his cheek into my palm. "okay?"He sighs for what feels like the one hundredth time before slowly responding with a nod

"Good " I reply reaching up to place a small kiss on his forehead making him chuckle, the pleasant vibrations filling my ears.

This has surprisingly not gone as bad and I'm  really thankful to be honest. I don't know what's been happening to us lately but we seem to find it quite difficult to resolve any problem that arises and it's starting to bother me. I don't want our relationship being an endless loop of fighting over and over again especially since our baby is literally this close to finally being here.

The thought of him or her being  brought into all of this makes me uncomfortably shift and I frown just by thinking about it. Carter seems to catch onto my unpleasant look and and his  attention is now fully drawn to me once more. "What's wrong?" he questions leaning his forehead against mine.

"I was just thinking about the baby" I confess honestly "What if all these problems aren't  sorted out before I give birth, how will we be able to handle it and take care of a family ?" I ask

"I don't want you to think like that" he says taking my hand as he leads me back to sit  down "everything will turn out fine" he says sounding like he's reassuring himself rather than me"I promise "

A\\N - please read

Sorry I took so long  guys I've just been busy studying for my finals and dealing with some things in life so I haven't been on here that often.  School ended last week and I finally got the chance to finish writing this chapter. I know it's not great and I'm sorry about that but recently my mind has just been so blank . I've literally lost all inspiration of writing all of a sudden due to some stuff and me trying to figure myself out and want I really want right now. I'm even considering ending the book here instead of finishing it to be honest. I haven't quite decided yet but I'll keep you guys updated on what's happening as soon as I can. Till further notice, goodbye