for phoebe

17.

Your idol released a new album and today it's your birthday. I hope you're happy. I'm not so sure whether or not I am.

Have you ever been in a room full of people and felt so utterly alone; like if you weren't there it wouldn't make a difference. Well, I've been feeling like that today.

I only write when I'm a mess of a person.

I know my friends noticed how I was feeling. One said "you seem really off today." Another, "stop looking so depressed." In case you weren't aware, it isn't as simple as that.

My writing has been all over the place for months. There used to be a concious flow to what I wrote, now, not so much. It's like the words in my head can't come out write on paper.

I wanna thank you for introducing me to Floak, he's an amazing artist and person. He's impacted my life for the short time I've spent getting to know him and I can't believe how far he's come since his first project. I'm so proud of him.

I used to write constantly, not being able to go a day without writing something new. I've abandoned my novels in the making. They're about darker subjects by the way. My head's been this way for a hot minute.

My ex has no reigns on me.

My ex has no reigns on me.

My ex has no reigns on me.

I am stronger than this.

So are you.

- for Phoebe

AN: wherever you are in life, whatever you're going through. I just want you to know that you're not alone and with time everything is temporary. If you just need someone to talk to, I'm here. Take care