im a bad swimmer
i get scared that ill drown even though it's a little pitiful, but i still love the beach
a beach trip with friends are needed i swear im too ready for it
it's Christmas time but it doesn't feel like it. I mean, living in Florida the coldest it gets is the 40's. We don't get any snow so the only chance of a white Christmas is on the beach. Last Christmas it was in the 80's
I feel like I should mention to you guys that I've been sober a year and a week. That's a big feat for me I think. A whole year. Sure I've smoked my share of pot but i haven't drank at all. As impressive as it seems all i want is to get drunk off my ass again and do hoodrat shit with my friends as we chain smoke cigs and pass blunts. It's just the better choice for me. I'm probably gonna stay home for New year's again this year. Last year I was on a few different pills for New year's cause there was no alcohol. Wouldn't recommend that for most of you, it's kinda a shitty path to venture down.
I'm still depressed
And have anxiety
I still want to kill myself. I say that a lot lately
No one thinks I'm serious
YOU ARE READING
for phoebe
Non-FictionI wrote this so friend could see what my life is really like. Not everyone is how they appear.
