MISANTHROPIC | pjm. [COMPLETED]

Chapter Nineteen

I didn't know why I couldn't resist Jimin. 

The feeling of his lips still tingled. The memory of the whole kiss itself - it made it hard for me to go to sleep, when I couldn't think of anything else but that. I felt like an idiot, smiling out of sudden when I thought of Jimin.. or yesterday, as it was the same. 

It was different. He was different. He knew about my alias. And when he saw my discomfort, he didn't bother asking. Didn't he know that he was going to be a huge part of threat to the outsiders, to those who wants to blackmail me so bad? 

But he didn't worry. I knew he was going to keep his promise, that he was going to keep it between us. And when he texted me if I could come to his apartment, unlike before, I didn't hesitate. This feeling was different. 

And the others.. they always treated me like I was such an amazing person. I didn't understand that part at all - even if I tried to. Or were they actually that nice? Even Taehyung's girlfriend.. she actually depended on me to take care of Jimin. 

I didn't know that gaining the trust of just one person, meant that I would gain all of theirs. For some reason, it was a much heavier weight on my shoulders. It made me more conscious. It made me want to run and hide away even more. 

Their trust.. 

Realising it's importance, I didn't want to lose it. But just by spilling the secret to others that stays between me and Jimin.. it would break down that trust. And I didn't want that to happen. It was something I treasured.. it was a goal I didn't know I could achieve.. 

It was a different kind of trust. It was genuine. It was like they would actually be there for me - and whenever I thought about it, it made me want to be there for them, too. 

But.. how? 

I sighed and stood up from the edge of my bed, looking out the huge window for a short while to see the beautiful view of the city, before proceeding to freshen up and getting ready. 

Before going, I decided to bring an ever so familiar box that laid on the bar counter, and pocketed it in my coat. And it felt like I knew the place so well, that the paths looked so familiar and I suddenly knew my way around. 

Once I reached the building, I texted Jimin, saying I was waiting in the lobby. Not too long, and I saw him waving at me, his foot between the elevator. I playfully rolled my eyes and stood up from the couch, making my way over to him. 

"Are you really that impatient on waiting for the elevator?" I cocked an eyebrow. He shrugged. 

"Why not hold it like the way I do?" he replied, laughing softly. "Also, I'm excited! You see, Taehyung has a very busy schedule this week, and he really wanted to give you this thing.." he explained that it was in his room. "Just wait for my gift."

"You didn't have to." I said, my voice low. I wasn't used to people being so generous. "Really." 

"Nah," he waved a hand and walked out of the elevator. He pulled out his keys and pulled the door open. 

My brows furrowed once seeing the room, "You're alone.. again?" 

"Yeah, my hyungs are always out. I'm always lonely here!" he pouted, making his way to his bed and flopped down, letting out a sigh. "Yoongi-hyung is always out to a studio, Jin-hyung is always out to wander around, and you know, I feel like he's seeing someone." 

I slightly tilted my head, sitting at the edge of his bed. Why wasn't he acting weird? Did the memory of our kiss suddenly disappear in his head? I felt heat rise up my cheeks, and I couldn't face him. "I don't think so. Maybe he just wants to wander around the city."