Think Again Alpha

Chapter 22

Sleeping and trying not to think about Jayden have been the only things happening in my life for the past night and day. I tried so hard to get my relationship with Jayden to where it was, but I've ruined it. I don't know if my heart can take being rejected by Jayden. I know it's a selfish reason for not telling him about everything yet, but I just want to wait until my heart hardens a little more. It's so freshly injured from the whole Manus thing. I don't know how much more hurt it can take.

Small knocks come from my bedroom door followed by my mom's sweet voice, "Hunny, can I come in?"

I don't bother answering her. I don't have the energy for it. I guess it didn't matter anyway because the next thing she does is open my door.

She must have unlocked it from the outside because I swear I locked it before I got into bed. I hear her gentle steps make their way over to my bed and she sits down next to me. Gently, she places her hand on my side.

"Soph, please talk to me, I know you're awake." She says.

I continue to stare out my balcony window. I just don't think I can talk. Even if I could, I wouldn't know what to say. Is this what Georgia felt when she stopped talking completely?

"I wanted to tell you that we got Manus. We have him locked up in a cell along with his Beta and a few of his higher ups." I shiver in fear at the name.

I picture how many chains it must take to keep Manus concealed. He is a very big guy so it must be a lot. But wait, if we have him chained up in a cell that must mean that Alpha Renalds helped save me... Why would he do that? He doesn't like me.

"Did Alpha Renalds help?" I ask quietly.

Mom begins to stroke my hair as she says, "Yes, he was a big help. Especially in finding Manus. Although I have to say, the hardest part was convincing him to attack another pack."

She sighs and pauses for a moment.

"That mate of yours though, he was the main reason for his father's change in spirit. That boy really loves you Soph. He didn't give up on finding you once. I'm surprised he is even functioning properly, he hasn't slept in weeks." She says.

My head immediately flashes to Jayden. He never gave up? He didn't go to Ashley? He did all that for me and I betrayed him. Honestly I can't believe myself. I didn't even bother to look at his physical appearance... he must have been exhausted. I don't deserve him as my mate. He is too good of a guy for me.

"Speaking of Jayden, why is he still here but not in here with you? Are you okay?" She asks me.

Am I okay? Would anyone be okay after going through everything I did? And what about Georgia? She is just gone? Did I imagine her to keep myself from going insane? I'm so confused.

But I had no idea Jayden was still here. I figured he would just go back to the pack house. Won't his father get mad if he doesn't go home? I can't have other people getting mad at Jayden because he is worried about a mate that doesn't deserve him.

"Where is he?" I ask.

"He is waiting outside. He said he doesn't want to intrude on us. I told him he was welcome to come in but he insisted."

Mom stops stroking my hair and stands up from the bed.

"I know you are hurting Soph, but he is too. Don't leave him alone. I will be in bed with Will if you need us. We will talk in the morning."

She kisses my head. Then she is gone, leaving me alone to think.

She is right, he is hurting. He will be hurting more once he finds out the truth though. So what's worse? Having him hurt now without my comfort, or telling him and have him push me away?