Carousel - Malvie

Shatter

Past..
Evie
After Mal had gone to sleep I snuck out of the bed and into the bathroom. I looked again at the pregnancy test I had hid up high so Mal couldn't find or reach it. I squinted in the dark at the two little lines that meant positive and began to silently cry. Apparently not silent enough.
"E...." Mal said quietly turning on the lights I turned and hid the test behind my back, the bright light caught me off guard though and I did so to late. Mal caught my arm and pulled it back around. I couldn't make eye contact with her. She looked at the object in my hand for a long time before turning silently and leaving the bathroom. She turned the lights off and crawled back into her bed. Usually when it comes to Mal silence is good but in this case, I knew she was hurt. I was to, I had no idea how, I hadn't slept with anyone. I threw the test out and exited the bathroom. I wanted to acknowledge Mal, make her say something, anything, even if she did yell. But I didn't.
Present
I struggled as the doctors rushed into the room and urged everyone out. Then it hit me, I didn't want to have any connection with Doug, I didn't want to have this baby. If I did I knew I'd lose Mal forever.
"NO!" I screamed pushing the doctors away and tried to get up, before I did I felt a sharp jab in my neck and I blacked out.

Mal
I was spray painting the walls some more of our hideout when I heard someone coming up. I turned swiftly and saw Jay.
"Wow Mal you're a hard person to track." He said and I rolled my eyes.
"Leave Jay," I said but he grabbed my arm and turned me toward him.
"Mal, I just got word that they had to knock Evie out because she was freaking out. If she still is when she wakes the baby could die." He said and I crossed my arms.
"Why don't they just do a cesarian section." I said and he looked me in the eyes.
"She's gone into labour" he said and I felt my feet start moving. I was suddenly running to Evie. I'm not sure why but I did.
Past
I wake up about two hours later, the sun is now out. I find myself getting up and packing a bag. Evie wakes up and immediately rushes over trying to stop me, tripping over her own blanket. I ignore her and continue packing. I feel her grab my arms and turn me to face her. I don't meet her gaze but I know it's burning into me. She begins talking but my own head is shouting so loud I don't hear her. I'm doing everything I can to mot shout at her.
"MAL PLEASE SAY SOMETHING!" She finally breaks my thoughts and is now crying. I meet her gaze with a look that I know could kill because she flinches.
"Evie I don't have anything to say to you." I choke on my own words and continue packing. She falls to the ground.
"Mal please.." she says. I turn to her and now I'm shouting. She shrinks back and is crying more but doesn't try to stop me. I cut myself off when I start crying.
"How could you do this to me!? To us?!" I finally shout and pick up the bag I packed then leave slamming the door. I collapse outside and cry uncontrollably, because I know I lost my other half. I curl up into a ball and cry until I feel someone pick me up and carry me to a bed and I fall asleep, not caring who it was.