Today || Lams

eleven

a/n- i rushed this chapter too

eliza~

today i cried.

i do love james, i really do.

but i love you more, alex.

james walked in.

i told him i loved him, but i still love you.

you were a light skinned guy from the carribean. 

cute hair, mature, and your body like...

woah.

i remember when you moved here to new york.

where dreams are made.

i said hi.

you seemed mature, and we talked more.

i didn't tell james about the letters.

i didnt tell james about the time i cut.

i barely talk to him.

do i even really love him?

if i could be with you, alexander...

i could be enough.

we could be enough.

that would be enough.

if i can't have you, atleast,

if i could share a fraction of your time,

if i could grant you piece of mind...

...would that be enough?

but i know i'll never have you.

i have james.

i love james.

but it's not enough.