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john's diary-
1. i like writing with blood. it comes from my wrists.
5. thomas jefferson is on a vacation to france. i'm so happy.
10. i am worthless.
15. why do they hate me?
20. why don't i fight back?
25. why am i such a fucking creep?
30. why do i bother with life?
35. i am worthless.
40. why do i cry myself to sleep?
45. somebody hug me.
50. somebody fix me.
55. somebody save me.
60. send me a sign, God.
65. give me some hope here...
70. something to live for...
71. i found something to live for
72. i met him at a bar. he is very pretty. i think he is straight.
73. i love you. i love you. i love you.
74. i got alex's number. i love you.
75. i'm at your apartment. i love you.
76. i'm a freak i'm a freak i'm a freak. do you even love me?
77. i love you. today i'm going to run away from home. you're bisexual. do you love me?
78. your cousin commited suicide. i'm so sorry. i love you.
444. what the heck i gotta do to be with you? eliza schuyler loves you. no no no you love me. you don't need her, you need me. i need you. i love you. today is our one year anniversary of meeting. i love you. you love me too. i am happy again.
445. my jaw hurts. that's ok because i have you.
446. i love you
447. i love you
448. i love you
i put down my diary.
i love you.
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