Now or Never.

Chapter 6.

we are all sitting at the beach and enjoying the view of the sun going down. Alex is quite. to quite..

"You okay?"  i ask looking up at him.
He nods amd smiles.
" I just missed you is all." he smiles bright. theres the man i love. He pulls me into a hug and doesnt let go. I lay my head on his chest and watch the sin slowly go down..

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i woke up to the bright sun hitting my face. i groan. but roll out of bed and into the shower.  i blow dry my face and curl  the ends. i go for a beach wave look. a thought popped into my head.  Why dont i take my dads boat out?

i walktl my closet and grab a pair of high waisted shorts and a loose top and some sandals. i grab a bikini and walk out my door.

" mom?" i yell.
"Kitchen dear" she yells back.

i walk to the kitchen to see my mom and kane cooking,talking, laughing and smiling. it was a perfect sight. i giggle.

"mom?  can i.. can we take dads boat out?maybe out to our beach house? for a few days. " i ask. i know it hurts my mom to think of my father bur i thought id ask.

she looks puzzled. and than looks down at the ground.
"never mind mom. im sorry for asking. "i feel bad for asking now..

" No dear, you can. After all your father gave it to you before he passed. its just thinking of the boat and the get away house brought me down. i miss your father so much anymore. " she sadlu smiles.
i  get up off my chait and make my way to her and give her a hug.

" We will be a few days. Not lonf. k smile and she nods.

"remember how to drive the boat?" she smirked. Knowing my answer.

"Thats the first thi g i learned as a child so yes mom, i remember  Thank you mom"

"Is alex going?  He seemed out of it yesterday. "

" I dont know mom. Probably not. I want to get to know my new friends so it will just be the four of us."i smile and so does kane.

WAIT! Kane? Kane is in the room? He heard about my father? Maybe not? Maybe?  He totally did..

i walk out of the room and make my way back up stairs.. i begin to pack and suddenly i hear a knock at my door.

"Come in!" i yell.

i see kane standing in my door way. hes leaning against the wall and smiling.  He has his hat on backwards and skinny jeans that are torn and a plain white tshirt. he looked so good.
i was pulled of thought from a sound of someone clearing there throat.

"oh. um. hi. " i shake my head trying to get the thoughts out.

"Hey. We're ready. " he said and smiled soon after. His smile sending chills down my spine. I love his smile.

"Ill be down in a few minutes. " i smiled back.
" want me to carry that down? " he said pointing at the bag in my hand. i nod and thank him.

he walks closer to me and i cant help but hold my breathe. His hand touching mine and it warmed my hole body. i look down to see his hand on mine and look up to see him looking down at me.. oh my godddd.
he smiles and pushes a loose hair behind my ear and i cant help my smile.  hes so sweet.

" we'll be waiting on you downstairs doll. " he smiled and walked away. i felt so lost.. so alone.. without his hand on mine..

why am i feeling his way?
why dont i feel this way with Alex?
wwwhhhyyy..