Now or Never.

Chapter 43

" Kane... " i speak threw the phone... " I have something important to tell you. It can't wait."

Silence took over the phone..

" okay." He finally speaks.

" I'm... we're... nothing... it can wait. " I say.
" no tell me babe" he says " sorry force of habit." He says shortly after.

" just come home when your back. It's important but should be told in person. " I tell him.
" okay. I'll see you in a few days." He says an hangs up.

How am going to tell him? It was such a surprise to me.. it's bad timing also. How am I supposed to it? Alone? Caring for two children. Without him? Nicole has him in a spell an I can't pull him away. I'll be doing this all alone again.

I'm currently 5 month pregnant. I got pregnant a few weeks before he left me.. before he left us.. I was going to tell him before he left. But nothing ever goes as planned. I find out in a few days what baby brown #2 is. I wish I could tell him, I wish he would be here. To never leave me again. But who knows.

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- Few Days Later. -

I'm sitting in the doctors office, waiting.
Kane is on his way back home. Should be back when I get back home.

" Hello, I'm Doctor Philip, how are you feeling today?" He asks.
" Good, ready to find out the sex of the baby!" I smile.  He nods.

He puts the gel on my belly. And the baby appears on the screen.

" hmm." The doctor says.
" hmm what? Is the baby okay?" I ask. Scared at this point.

" I'm sure it is. I just can't seem to find a heartbeat. I'll push down harder. " he says. And does just that.

It's feels like hours before he speaks again. I'm getting scared and feeling sick.

" I'm so sorry... I can't seem to find any movement or a heartbeat. " the doctor speaks and looks at the screen. " would you like to know if it was a boy or girl?" He asks. I nod.

" it's a boy. It could've been multiple reasons why he didn't make it, stress is the most common. I'll print off the ultrasound pictures for you. " he tries to smile.

My heart drops. My face goes pale. My stomach hurts.. my baby... my son... I begin to cry.

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The drive home was hard. My daughter and mother will be home waiting to hear the news. They was so excited to know what the baby was. Now I have to tell them...

I park the car and walk in slowly, holding pictures of my boy.. I open the door an there's my little girl running to me. It makes me smile. After her comes... Kane??

" hey, I hope you don't mind me being here. You just sounded like you really needed to tell me something the other day. " he smiles slightly.

I nod. Holding my stomach, tears now falling to my cheeks.. I walk to the room where my mom is.

" can you watch her for a second. I need to talk to kane alone first. " I ask an she nods

We walk to the kitchen. I'm trying to figure out what to say..

" Kane.." I speak. He steps closer to me.
" Kane, we.. " I begin to cry again.  I just hand him the ultrasounds.. he looks at them.
" we're pregnant?" He smiles. And I feel even more sick. He's happy.

" We were. I had a misscarriage..." I look at my belly... i feel empty.
" oh baby. I'm so sorry! " he has tears running down his face... he hugs me. Kisses my forehead. " I'm so sorry baby girl!" He says again.