"Yet another night I am awake at 1 AM and all I can do is think about you. I can never escape. Not even in my dreams. Because you are my dream. You are everything I have ever wanted in someone and you are consuming me. You are eating me from the inside out, starting with my heart, and you will never even know.
You will never know that you are more than a friend to me. You will never know how when I am with you all I want to do is grab your hand and hold on tight, and pull you into a kiss, or how when you smile or brush up against my arm when we walk with eachother it sends shivers down my spine and my heart aches. I crave you when I am with you and I hurt when I am not. You will never know how I love you. How I am absolutely crazy in love with you. I have seen every inch of your soul and felt it connect with mine. You have latched onto my heart and now you are sucking out everything inside of it. You are so wonderful and beautiful and I love you so much, but you are a leech to me now.
When I first had feelings for you, you latched onto my heart, and at first it stung, and I prayed for you to let go, but you stayed. Then over time you have kept a tight grip, wrapping yourself around my heart, making sure you owned every inch of it, and then the feeling became numbness. I grew used to the feeling of hurt and pain. My mind became dizzy with the thoughts of you, and how I should be feeling the pain of never being able to have you love me because it would hurt even more if I lost you entirely. You mean the world to me as a friend, and you are my world in my mind, but now you are squeezing the life out of me, sucking out the love and keeping it for yourself.
And you don't even know you're doing it."
- Excerpt Of A Book I Could Never Write #9 (via Tiffanie)
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Excerpts Of Stories I Could Never Write
Storie breviShort paragraphs and pieces of stories I've always thought about writing, but never had the heart to.
