Excerpts Of Stories I Could Never Write

Should I..?

I can't stop thinking of you, and how we used to be.
We used to love talking to eachother.
Now we barely say two words.
I keep wondering if I should keep going.
Everything seems to remind me of you and all I ever want to do is cry.
Should I hold hold on to you?
Should I let go?
Should I tell you everything I've been feeling?
Or should I keep quiet?
Should I silently let myself suffer to save what we have left?
Should I try my best to move on when I have to see you with someone else?
Should I end it now and say goodbye, knowing that if we are distancing ourselves now, then it will undoubtedly happen in the future no matter what I do?
Should I just close my eyes and let you choose what direction I go in?
Should I turn around and wait until I can't hear your footsteps walking away from me anymore?
Should I sit down and let you decide if you want me to get back up with you, or let me sit there and grieve someone that's still alive?
Should I lay down and let you squeeze whatever love that isn't for you in my heart out of my mind so it's nothing but you?
Should I let you go, or stand there silently until you're so far in the distance where you can't hear me finally screaming in pain from you?
What should I do?
Because I don't have a clue..
Should I?