Excerpts From a Lonely Heart

Ugly

My cheeks are dripping, wet,
Because of a love I haven't met,
The sun is asleep at this hour,
Maybe my heart will be able to purge of this sour.

I am ugly.
Do not tell me I am lovely
What a bittersweet feel
Because what you really think, your lips do seal.

What I see in the mirror
Cuts through me like a scissor.
There is nothing more I can ever be,
People will always look right through me.

I will never be free
From the partisan world
Which favors the pearl
Over the grey, bland rock.

I am ugly and I drown every day,
All I plead for is a single ray,
That will shine upon me,
Vast, powerful, admirable sea.

Woeful, wilting lily,
On a field of self pity,
Surrounded by rising, rich roses,
Speeding up how the lily decomposes.

I don't want to be alone,
But who wants to be near a deflated balloon?
Infinite flaws in and out,
No one will ever love me, I know without a doubt.

"He looks at you with dazzling eyes"
Momentarily my heart soars through the skies,
What a fucking joke.
What was always worthless nevertheless broke.

My cheeks are still dripping, wet,
Because of a love I will never meet,
The sun is asleep at this hour,
Maybe sleeping will temporarily relieve this sour.