Holiest//Phan

24.

"i- uh uh i..... what do you mean?"

"dan just because you're cute doesn't mean you get to play stupid. now come on danny spill the proverbial beans."

"i don't know what you mean." i say deciding to continue playing dumb.

"aww what a sweet boy you are boy pumpkin, i'm not an idiot i can tell what a cute little boy like you is thinking and you babe, are distressed."

with those words i stopped in my tracks. i slowly turned to face phil, my own contorting into a sudden rage.

"no how about we talk about that huh? your constant demeaning words towards me?"

"what are you even talking about love?"

"that! that's exactly what i'm fucking talking about! that constant belittling me that you seem to be oh so in love with! why the hell do you do that phil huh? what's the point?" i poke him hard in the chest. "huh lester? why the hell do you do that, make me feel like i'm a 6 year old little girl who doesn't know anything? i'm not 6 phil in the same age as you, I'm  your equal you twat!" i continue to poke him tears clouding my eyes. "fuck you phil fuck your back handed compliments that make a blush even though i know they're not true fuck your stupid little nicknames fuck you for confusing the hell out of me fuck you for messing up my feelings and and and fuck you being you!" i slap his chest out of frustration. i do it again and again and again until-

"dan! that's enough."

he grabs my hands and holds them to his chest. i take a deep breath and after a moment of silence he says

"are you done?"

i shake my head.

"good. now listen to me and listen closely, i don't know what the hell it is that's stressing you and its fine that you're taking it out on me but it's not fine if that's what you genuinely think of me. in no way do i ever mean to demean or belittle you ever. i know that you're my equal dan actually no you're fucking not if you haven't seemed to notice daniel i hold you high on a fucking pedestal. you're are so much more than and me and i love basking in you and all of you're glory you brat! i don't understand how someone like you can be so dense. it's so obvious that the fucking compliments i give you are serious because i seriously think you're cute and adorable and funny and fuck dan! fuck! what the hell is wrong with you that makes you so oblivious to how i feel about you?" by this point phil is screaming. " dan why can't you see how much i adore you even after such a short time why can't you see how much i-i-i-"

"you what?" i start to notice the tears in phil's eyes.

"how much i love you god damnit!"

phil turns around and punches a tree and then storms off in the direction which we came leaving me in a stunned silence.