In My Heart || Logan Paul✔️

~Im Sorry~

Amelia's P.O.V

I woke up about 30 minutes ago and I was scrolling through my Instagram feed. Logan posted on his YouTube and on Instagram saying that he was taking a break. I felt bad because he said one of the reason was because my fans had been giving him so much hate this past week. I didn't get what he meant when he said he finally understood why he was getting the hate. He also said he didn't know and that he was sorry. What was he sorry for? He didn't do anything wrong. When he said he doesn't like me that way I felt hurt. Did he not feel the same? I mean I like him but I'm still healing from Alex's death. Should I tell Logan how I feel? I don't want our friendship to be ruined. If I was going to tell Logan about my feelings for him, I was gonna tell him about Alex first.

I got off my phone and went in the bathroom to get ready. I brushed my teeth, did my hair and makeup, and got dressed. I wore my hair down, did very little makeup, and wore a very comfy outfit.

I was heading to the coffee shop where we would meet. It was currently 10am. It was a beautiful day outside. I walked in the place and saw Logan waiting at a table for me. I made my way over to him. I could immediately tell something was wrong. I took a seat across from him.

"Hey Logan"

"Hey"

"You seem off, what's wrong?"

"I've been receiving a lot of hate from your fans and I didn't know why until yesterday. They keep mentioning this guy named Alex Jones"

Alex, oh god. I couldn't speak. That's the first time I've heard his name since the funeral. Logan didn't know. Oh god. I didn't think it would hurt this much just to hear his name. I don't know what to do. I had tears filling my eyes.

"Amelia!" I looked at Logan.

"Are you okay? What's wrong?"

"No I'm not fine. Logan I..."

"Whatever it is you don't have to tell me"

"I do. I have to tell you"

"Okay"

I took a deep breath and began to talk.

"I've been waiting to tell you about Alex. I wanted to wait until I was ready to talk about him. I'm sorry I didn't tell you about him before. It's just hard for me to talk about. Alex, he was my boyfriend. About 4 months ago he passed away due to a heart attack. We had been together for 2 years. I loved him so much and I was so broken when he died"

"Amelia, I'm so sorry for your loss. I shouldn't have been such a jerk. I understand that you wanted to wait. I probably should have just waited for you to tell me about him. I honestly had no idea. I'm so sorry"

"It's okay Logan. You didn't know. My fans never got an explanation about what happened. I should tell them but it's just so hard to talk about. Thank you for understanding. I'll make a video soon explaining thing so you can stop getting so much hate"

"You don't have to make a video it's fine that I'm getting ha-"

"I have to Logan. I need to. They deserve to know what happened. It will probably help me if I talk about it. You remember when I told you that I'm also a paramedic?"

"Oh yeah what about it?"

"I haven't worked as a paramedic since Alex passed away. Being in a ambulance again has been to hard for me. I just remember being in the back with Alex trying to save him. I don't know if I'll ever be able to go back"

"Whenever you ready to go back to work you'll know okay?"

"Okay"

We talked for a while. I told him about my life in Chicago and opened up more about Alex. I trusted Logan. I felt safe with him. He was so kind and sweet when I told him about Alex. He was so understanding and supportive. I left the shop at 11:30. I headed back home to make the video. The fans deserve an explanation. Every time somebody would ask me about him I ignored it. It's been to hard to talk about him. It's been 4 months and I still can't talk about him. I grabbed my camera set it up at my desk and press record.

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