Through It All

III

Weeks have passed without hearing from James.

I felt more and more empty as the days were passing by.
My life had no meaning without him.

I didn't felt that much lonely before.
When we first started to talk to each other, me and my parents were moving to a new country.
A country that was far away from were we lived before.

James was the first one of my friends to visit me in my new home. He came with Amy, and we spent all the day together. We had so much fun.

When he arrived home in the evening, he called me to tell me that he missed me. He told me that I was his heart and all his life. And I believed him, how could I?

His presence in my life made me forget that I was alone in this new country, that I lost all my friends.
After he was gone, I didn't find anyone by my side. I had no friends to talk to anymore. Maybe if I had some friends, they would've helped me to get over him.

Look what was I still thinking about!
My midterm exams were starting from next week, and still I didn't opened a book.
Okay Grace, you have to focus on your exams. You have to start studying noww! I thought to myself.

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It was one night before the exam, I revised everything and I was waiting for my brother to come back from work.
We were all sitting arround the dining table as my brother came in and joined us.
"I have bad news" he said. Tears filled his eyes as he continued "James's father has died this morning"

"What?!! How did you know?" I answered, surprised.

"Amy told me" he replied.

I left the dining table and went to my room without talking to anyone.

I felt deep pain in my chest as tears were rolling down my cheeks. I didn't know his father but knowing that he was somewhere in this world, feeling empty and extremly sad... I couldn't handle myself.

I called him.
"Hello" he answered.

"James, I'm sorry about your father. Maybe he's more happy where he is now"
He didn't speak a word. "I love you James, and I want you to know that whenever you need someone to talk to, I'll be by your side."

"Thank you. I have to hang up now. I'm in the church.." His voice was cracking, I could tell that he was doing his best not to cry.

Hearing the sadness in his voice broke me even more.
"Bye" I said as he was ending the call.