The Bet

What am I doing?

Jamie's POV 

HOW I IMAGINE Nathan 👆
What am I doing? To myself opening myself up to a complete stranger he just reveals something in me that I can not express. It is like when he moves close or looks my way the dark path I walk shows light it is a feeling of true love? Or am I getting to attached to this bet i might not be able to win something inside me is telling me not to go on someone is gonna get hurt.

"Jamie! Hello I have been calling you for the past ten minutes did you space out I am sorry I should have never told you to talk about how your mom died." His eyes burning with the desire to know what was wrong like a papa bear and his cub.

"I..Um am fine" I studdered.

" Ok let's get out of here" He dragged his hand on the table and took the check kindly paying for my shake and fries. 

We walked to the train station and took it down town. We walced into the movie theater and took our seats. He sat to the left of me and a women was to the right of me. During the movie there was a scene where a woman was holding her dying daughter and told her to be strong and to close her eyes it is ok to let go. The one thing I did not tell Nate was that I had done the same for my mom and that is why I am blamed too because I told her to close her eyes and if she wanted was to go in peace it was ok with me. So she did as told and let go when I felt that her pulse was no more I cried and cried till the paramedics came even when they got there I was soaked in tears and drowning in my own sorrow. To feel your own mom's pulse fade away like a balloon free in the sky. 

When the scene continued in the movie I had to leave all the memories came flooding back like if hover damn was to break. As I was going to get up from my seat a hand grabbed my left arm making me face him. Tears were already rolling down my face he saw and pushed me onto his lap and held me. He actually is holding me like a baby. I felt comfort I knew he felt for me but I did not want him to see me like that a broken record or a burnt pot holder. I suddenly got up and sat in my seat wipped my tears from my face. He took my hand and held it the rest if the time. After the movie was done I got curious.

"why did you hold me in there like that?" I asked a little to anxious 

" I know what it is like to feel abandoned and hurt as thogh your whole world is crashing down on you and it feels as though your whole exsistance is being drowned in water." He said holding both my arms down and looking me in the eyes. I could see the pain in his eyes and hear it in his voice. All I could think of doing is holding him so I did. We left the movies I took the bus to Cat's house and he took it who knows where. 

I think we are just a few "kids" with troubled past falling in love but why do I have to be in a bet. What should i do tell him hope for forgiveness or stay with the bet and be a liar forever... Problems for tomorrow.