words put together

congratulations, you just had an axniety attack on the phone

shaking hands,
repeating words,
slow tears,
repeating words.
repeating words.
repeating words.
repeating words.
shaking hands,
apologizing,
shaky breath,
close your eyes.

count to three.

open your eyes.

repeat after me:

i am only as alive as the world allows me to be.

close your eyes.

inhale.

pause your brain.

exhale.

repeat after me:

and the world is barely letting me breathe.

close your eyes.

take a deep breath.

open your eyes.

and respond:

okay.