The Bucketlist Bitches

Punch

I let out a sigh as i feel my consciousness slowly returning. I’m not ready to face a new day just yet, so i just lie and tare at the inside of my eyelids for a moment. It’s peaceful here, with the wind blowing over my face and the early morning birds singing. Wait what. I suddenly jerk awake, and almost fall off the roof. I start rolling down towards the edge, but at the last minute i grab a hold of the chimney.

"Shit" i mumble and let out a sigh of relief. "Nothing beats a good near death experience to wake up" I say to myself, as i sit down in security once again. i hear a moan beside me, and almost fall off the roof again. I had forgot Troy was here too. And suddenly everything comes back to me. How Troy showed up at my door last night, devastated by what Toby had done to him and Marcus.

I feel anger rise inside me once again, but it's not only towards Marcus, it's towards Hannah too. I've known her for almost ten years, and never in my life would i think she would be homophobic. I can't believe she would do something like that. But i guess you never really know people.

"You okay?" I ask, looking at Troy. "Yeah" he says and sits up. I know he's lying, or at least not really telling the whole truth, but I don't ask again. He'll tell me when he's ready. 

"Are you hungry?" "Starving" "Let's get something to eat then.” I say and we climb down the fire ladder and into my kitchen.

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I once again suck in a sharp breath before i enter the doors at school on Monday, but this time it isn't because i feel bad for myself for having to face the day ahead. No. This time it is to brace myself for the sight of Hannah, because i don't know what i might do if i meet her.

"Hi Cat" Jenny greets me as i stop by my locker to pick up my books. "Hi Jenny," i say and smile. I haven't talked to Jenny for ages, and the fact that she seems to be making an effort in talking to me, makes my day a hundred times better.

"How are you?" She asks. I know she doesn't really want an honest answer, no one ever does, but i think Jenny actually would be okay with me answering truthfully. Just not right now. "I'm fine, thanks for asking" I smile at her and close my locker. "How are you?" "I'm good" after that we don't really have anything else to say, so we just pack up and go to class.

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I sit down at lunch and bite into my ham and cheese sandwich. I haven't seen Hannah all day, and I´m starting to think she might be faking sick. I hope so.

"YO, Cat! Are you paying attention?" Renee asks and snaps her fingers in front of my face. I guess i zoned out for a second there, "Ehh, sorry. What were you saying?" I admit, a light blush blooming on my cheeks. "I was asking you where i should take Austin on a date this weekend. He's always the one to come up with dates, and this time i want to surprise him." Renee rambles on, and i immediately wish i hadn't paid attention at all. Austin seemed to be all she could talk about lately. I don't know what happened to her. She always used to talk about all kinds of amazingly weird things, like how dolphins are the only other mammal than humans that have sex for pleasure. But now she seemed be have been reduced to this little girl who never had anything interesting to say but what she and her boyfriend did last weekend. Don't get me wrong; I was happy she was happy. I just wish she hadn't changed so much.

"I don't know, I don't really know what it is like to be on a date. But i guess you could go to IKEA with him. Don't you know that Billy guy who works there? Maybe you could get him to let you in at night so you could have a Romantic evening at the place you met." I found the words spilling out of my mouth before I could even think. But i have to admit it was kind of a good idea. Renee seemed to agree because after that, that was all she could talk about.