We started to hike up this steep mountain and I forgot to mention to him that I was afraid of heights. Like deeply terrified. He looked at me and he said "Are you doing okay?" He seemed so happy that he brought me here and I would do anything just to keep that smile on his face. After a while of hiking I think the last time I sweated like this was when I was in kindergarten. We finally made it to the falls and I let go of his hand and I said "Wow babe this is the most beautiful thing ever." He wrapped his arm from behind me and rested his head on my shoulder and he said "I usually want to come here when I need to think. Because the different colors remind me of something." I said "Aweee darling what does the purple remind you of?" He said "It remind me of the purple lilacs my grandmother loved." I nodded and I felt my phone vibrate. I said "Sorry." He said "Don't worry about it. Answer it the call could be important." I grabbed my phone and I said "Nicole what do you want? You know I am on my date with Colin." She said "I know but Liam is in the hospital." When I heard that I dropped the phone and it almost went down the waterfall.
Colin picked it up and I had to sit down because I felt like I was going to pass out. What happened to my poor baby? Colin got off the phone and he said "Come on I will take you to go see him." He grabbed my hand and we walked back to the car and we drove to the hospital. A bunch of thoughts were going through my mind right now and I couldn't seem to focus on anything. Colin put his hand on top of mine and he looked at me and said "Liam will be okay he is a strong guy." I said "Colin this is all my fault. He shouldn't be in the hospital. He shouldn't be going through this." Colin said "I know babe. I know you have strong feelings for him but I once heard from a person in my dream that sometimes you have to let the person you love the most go. It is going to be the hardest thing that you are ever going to do in your life but if you are searching for happiness then that is the key." I nodded and I saw we were pulling up into the hospital.
Colin parked the car and we ran inside and I went up to the desk and I said "Hi I am here to see Liam Payne." The secretary typed the name into the computer and then she gave me his room number and Colin grabbed my arm and he said "You go back there. I will be right here waiting for you." I said "Are you sure?" I nodded and he kissed my forehead and said "He probably wants to see you more than he wants to see me." I said "I will be out as fast as I can." He nodded and I went into the room and I saw that Liam was hooked up to various machines. I felt a wave of emotions surpass me and I felt his pain. The doctor came in and he said "Hello. You must be family?" I nodded and I said "Yes I am his close friend." He said "Well my name is Dr. Bandari and Liam is right now in stable condition." I said "May I ask what happened and why he is here?" Dr. Bandari told me to sit and I sat down and he said "Liam experienced a depression, anxiety, and stress attack and on top of that had a drug overdose. We were able to pump the content out of the stomach but he is going to need a new liver since his is completely destroyed."
I said "Well when is the surgery going to take place?" Dr. Bandari said "Anywhere in the next few days. But I advise you not to panic and just wait to see what happens. He is in a coma and will be for a few weeks." I nodded and he said "I am sorry." I smiled and I said "Thank you." He walked out of the room and I faced Liam and grabbed his hand. I wrapped my hand around his and I said "Liam if you can hear me I just want you to listen for a few minutes. I won't give up on you if you keep fighting for me. Trust me Liam it is worth it. I love you I never stopped since the day we met for the first. I wish that I could give you what you deserve cause nothing can ever, ever replace you nothing can make me feel like you do. I know these past few months have been rough but I promise we will get through it together. Please don't leave me Liam. You are strong and I know that you will be okay."
I felt a certain ache in my heart because after everything we have been through I still loved him. I feel like my world is starting to tumble down because it seems that I know what my mind wants but not my heart and that could be the problem. Colin is an amazing guy and I love him with all my heart and he is the best boyfriend in the world and Liam is the type of guy that can make you feel like you are living in a fairy tale. But now I have to make the decision should I let Liam go or should I stay with Colin the person that makes me happy and isn't afraid to admit he is dating someone like me. This is going to be a hard decision.
