I started to cry and I saw my mom come up and she said "Liam called and I told him you were sleeping. Everything alright? Why are you crying?" I hugged her and I said "Mom I am a horrible person." She looked at me confused and she said "Why?" I said "I broke Liam's heart." She sighed and she said "Well he is downstairs. He wanted to talk to you before school started. So why don't you clean up and go meet him downstairs. There is breakfast in the fridge for you guys." I nodded and I cleaned myself up and I walked downstairs and Liam was sitting in the kitchen and when he saw me and he said "Morning darling. We need to talk." I sat down and I looked around and I said "Alright start talking." He looked at me and sighed and I knew this was not going to be good at all.
He said "I am sorry about what has happened. But I feel like we have this friendship together that I don't want to lose. I care a lot about you and I want you to be happy and if that involves me being out of the picture then I will leave you alone." I grabbed his arm and he jumped like he was in pain and I said "Liam are you okay?" He let out a heavy sigh and he said "Yeah I am alright." I looked at his arm and I begin to roll his sleeve back and I saw he had various cut marks. I gasped and I said "Liam have you been cutting yourself?" When I saw those marks on his arm I felt my heart crack into a billion of pieces. He said "Don't worry about them." I got up and I said "Don't worry about them?! Liam you are hurting yourself because of the pain I caused you. This is all my fault." I started to cry and he came over and hugged me and he said "Everyone goes through a hard time in their lives and people find different ways to try to avoid their problem. My problem happens to be love."
I sat back down and I said "What about love?" He said "I am crazy about this girl but I am afraid to tell her because of what others might think. She isn't a cheerleader or popular at school but she is one of a kind. You will never find a girl as beautiful and sweet as her." I said "Sounds like she means a lot to you." He nodded and he started to cry and he said "I am sorry I have to go. I will see you later." He grabbed his bag and left before I could say anything. I love Liam so much but I never knew love, would feel like a heart attack, it's killing me, swear I never cried so much, cause I never knew love, would hurt this bad, its the worst pain that I ever had. I got ready for school and grabbed my backpack and my car keys and drove to school. It kind of sucks being an only child not having an older sibling to talk to about your problems or where to get advice from. I parked the car and I saw Liam making out with a blonde chick. Let me introduce you to her. She is the alternate captain of the cheer leading team and she is the devil that I despise and never liked. Her name is Brittany.
I got out of the car and Nicole quickly came and got me and she said "Don't even think about doing anything (Yn). And look your boyfriend is coming anyways." I turned around and saw Colin looking at me and he came up and he hugged me. He said "How is my amazing girlfriend today." I said "It's been a rough morning." He pouted a little which made him super adorable and he said "Well today is Friday why don't we do something after school. Like go somewhere." I smiled and I kissed him and I said "I would love it if we did." He smiled and he said "Alright come on we have English first period." I grabbed his hand and I felt like he was the real person I belonged with. The person that made me happy but these feelings I have for Liam I don't think they will ever go away. Maybe it's because he was the first person I lost my virginity to and I have this connection with him that could never be broken but I need to focus on what I have in front of me now. If the universe wants Liam and I together than when the right time comes we will be together.
Colin and I walked into the classroom and he kissed me and he said "I will always be here for you when you need me okay?" I smiled and I nodded and I said "Okay babe." The bell rang and the kids started to come in and the teacher came in and he said "Today is going to be an interesting class. You are going to walk out of here feeling like a different person. Today I am going to have you read your essays about your true self. And then as a class we are going to have a group discussion about our thoughts about your paper. Anyone would like to volunteer first?" I saw Colin raise his hand and he said "I will!" Mr. Saltzman said "Alright Colin." He handed Colin his paper and Colin said "The first day I walked through the halls of this high school and saw this beautiful girl with brown eyes I knew that this year was going to be different. I am an ordinary guy but when I am around her I feel like I am special and I will always have her by my side. I want to tell her all my feelings but I don't know how." He looked looked at me and I thought maybe it's time to stop caring what people think. Life is too short to sit and listen to what people think about you. Mr. Saltzman was right I was going to walk out of this classroom as a changed person. But I am afraid who.
