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SotC: Beautiful, MONSTA X

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MY BEAUTIFUL CEO,

You complain that you don't know my name, and then you don't tell me yours. What is this? Are you even aware of how endearing you're acting?

Instead of just telling each other our names, let's make it a game: each of us guess three names for each letter we write. And we only get two hints overall for what the name could possibly be, since we already know the first letter. Deal?

Here are my three guesses: Jung, Junhong, Jae. Let me know if I'm right.

Something that stood out to me in the last letter was that you said you didn't know me very well. Love, isn't that the purpose of these letters? To get to know each other? Though I will admit I have a couple sensitive subjects that I would prefer to not discuss, you're free to ask me anything and I will answer as much and as honestly as I can.

But at the moment, we don't know each other well. I understand that. Just know you're free to ask me, and I hope I'm free to ask you.

To answer your question, I believe the answer is no and yes. No, you cannot ignore the chemistry, because it is so clearly there, and yes, because people can choose to not do anything about it. It's sad, but I've seen it happen, and it's never ended well.

I don't want that to happen to us. Not even because of me, because I've been hurt a great deal in my life, but because it would kill me knowing you were living your life permanently heartbroken.

On a lighter note, you're, what, a fourth-year business student that doesn't like coffee? How have you survived? What kinds of coffee have you tried? I'm truly perplexed.

And dragonflies? Really? You're going to need to explain that to me, too, haha.

I'm curious- you mentioned your roommates in your last letter. Do you live on-campus, or in an apartment? And I thought your family's in Seoul? What are they like? I'm not trying to be nosy, I'm just curious, but if it helps out, I'll tell you about me.

I live on campus- I got here through a scholarship that paid for my tuition and board, and since I'm an R.A., I get paid a small bit each week. It's not too much, but it's enough for me to be able to sustain myself and throw a couple thousand won in my savings. Because I'm an R.A., I do get my own dorm, so no roommates, but I'm in charge of everyone in my hallway. Luckily, I have a small hallway- only about 3 rooms- and two of them aren't taking summer classes, so I'm only in charge of two people. If we ever get to that point, feel free to come over whenever, and whatever we do, I'll make sure those boys don't snitch. (^_^)

As you know, my parents are back in Busan with my brother, who's finishing up high school. They're amazing; they’ve helped me when times were hard, and helped me grow into the person I am today, so I owe them for that.

My brother is the best thing that's happened to me.

On first glance, we don't look compatible- he's a star athlete, captain of the baseball team, and outgoing, while I'm not an athlete of any form, prefer books over baseball, and tend to be more reserved. However, he's a bit shy, and so caring, and people can't help but take one look at his sunshine smile and fall in love with him. (I personally think he's a little gay like the rest of us, but he hasn't come out, and I don't want to pressure him.)

Anyway...I couldn’t get you out of my head today (not that I wanted to), but I'm beginning to run out of paper, and I do have notes to take, so I'm just going to stop here.