Run

12

It's been a little over 2 months since I found out I was a werewolf. Never have I ever felt so freaking fantastic. I've made best friends with my wolf; turns out, if you don't supress and poison your other half, you can get along pretty well.

Apparently, my body has changed, according to people around me. (Especially Alice) They say I look healthier, more fit and even say I seem to be more cheery. Maybe that's because I feel lighter and clearer; like a blurry fog in my brain is gone.

Nightly trainings have been getting tougher but so have I. I think Alex is really proud of me, although I don't think he'll ever admit it to my face. Seeing the pride in his eyes is already enough for me.

My routine is school, exercise in the gym, do homework for abit, rest at home then nightly trainings. Nightly trainings consists of physical and mental time.

Alex first trains me to build up my physical side then he teaches me new things about magical history. Sometimes I wonder why I bother even doing my school homework when Alex makes it clear that I may/ may not make it for the transformation.

My wolf constantly tells me that I have to. That it's not 'try and hope to succeed', it's 'do it or die'.

"I feel like I should be focusing all my time on this, y'know." I'm doing pullups, the familiar burning doing a good job of calming my nerves.

"Young one," Alex sighs as he flips through his 'magic book' he recently always brings with him to our trainings. He doesn't bother to look up at me. "If there's one thing that humans do good here, it's their education. It keeps your mind younger, that there's always something new to learn."

"I don't think that learning about the pythagoras theorem or the makeup of a dycoteledonus leaf will help me survive my shift." Once i'm done with my set, I drop from the pull up bar and land on my feet. I wipe away the sweat from my face as I slowly sat down face to face with Alex.

He keeps silent, flipping through his book. After awhile of reading, he closes it and looks at me. "Learning like this is a luxury. After your shift, you can't experience things like this anymore. Honestly, this is for you to relax."

"What do you mean, I can't experience this anymore?" I actually gasp. I had my life planned out already! "After I shift, i'll be studying till I get a degree. Then i'll work. Then i'll have a family. Then i'll die."

"Maybe I didn't explain everything to you yet, but did you really think everything could go back to normal after your shift?" Alex puts away his book, shaking his head.

"Uhh, yeah?"

Why is he shaking his head at me like that? He hasn't mentioned to me a single time that I would have to leave the life i'm living now. I mean, it just got good! I've made a few more friends and everything!

"I guess that's the topic of lesson today then. We'll cut off physical training for tonight."

He better. I need all the explanaition I can get. I feel a wave of sadness come over me.

"Hunters are everywhere, young one. It won't be safe living here anymore. You might get discovered, especially during your shift. Which is how long again?" He tests me.

"Around 24 hours." I repeat robotically the information that was burned into my brain. It's to remind myself that that is how long I must endure the pain. Gosh, i'm scared.

"Within that 24 hours, you'll surely be found out and murdered. They are trained that way. If somehow they don't find out, you'll still be unhappy for the rest of your life."

"Why? Why are you so sure I can't find my happiness here?" Even to my own ears, I sounded like I was whining.

"By what i'm going to tell you right now."

I stand up so fast that my head is suddenly racing and I stumble. "Then I don't want to hear it."

"Are you sure? Ignorance is only truly bliss for those who are truly ignorant."

"Stop it with the quotes, Alex." I walk away, unsure of where i'm going. I need to breathe. I can't breathe. I take a deep breath, clenching my shirt. Why does it suddenly feel so hot? I feel too tight in my own skin. My wolf howls in pain, trying to get out. I snap at it, harshly. It snaps back. I snarl.

Control! Alex is somehow now holding me. Somehow i'm on the ground, heart pulsating faster than it ever has. If you shift now, they'll come for you.

"Can't you transport me somewhere else? Don't you have that power?" I pant.

"No, I don't." He sighs, "Magic like that requires potions. Potions like that need ingredients that I don't have."

Damn it!

Control! Push her back, now.

I do what he says and eventually, I feel myself returning to normal. Thank goodness.

"I'm still not interested in what you have to say." I lie.

"Sure. Just to confirm, you don't want to know about your real mother and the guy you can't stop thinking about? Your old memories?" He stands up, magic book in hand.

Damn it... again!

"Fine, tell me."

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(A/N):
I have the self-control of a rabid toddler so here's the next chapter!!